10 days and the mist is starting to clear. Not as depressed as I way. Was recreational use. Some lines with friends… until it suddenly wasn’t.
Anyone else going through this?
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Hi @Edie. My problem is alcohol, but if you can use the forum’s search function to look for “cocaine” or “blow” and find others with a similar addiction.
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@Matto224 agreed. Alcohol seems to be my trigger. It’s very hard, but I’m sick of waking up and feeling bad about myself (the guilt). I wish you best of luck.
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Thanks John! All the best
Congrats Edie, I started on this forum a little over a month ago to help me with my cocaine/drinking issues. It’s a hard road, especially for young people who are surrounded by it, but it does get easier. I have lapsed a few times since then, but each time I’ve come out stronger and more connected with who I really am. Good luck to you!
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Thank you @Livy. Means a lot. I hear you…in the advertising industry so it’s always around. Agree that this forum is helping. As a bit of an introvert, it was the perfect drug (or cover-up) for me, so it’s really hard to start socialising again without it. All the best to you and agree with you - every time you lapse you come out stronger. X
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@Matto224 agree completely. I rarely have the urge without a drink. I’m always completely exhausted after a day at work (demanding job) so if I know I have to go socialise with a group of people, I would have a line and be able to function in a social setting.
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Introverts unite! It’s a seemingly great way to be social and part of the party, but I always find myself even more alienated when I come down. This has definitely helped me realize it’s not something normal and not a healthy way to be social. I always find myself even more exhausted and withdrawn after a night of using. It’s hard to come to terms with that as a shy person myself.
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Congrats . I’m on day 2 . So hard . Stupid blow lol
Hi I had almost 3 months clean from blow and relapsed after connecting with some using friends one of which who is trying to quit but can’t it’s been almost 3 whole weeks since I relapsed and I’m so sick today is day one for me. I stayed up all night feeling awful and using and I want nothing more then to go back in time and never pick up again. I have so many negative severe consequences to face but I didn’t care. Addiction is knowing you have a problem knowing how negative your drug of choice effects your life and knowing the consequences and still using I’m incredibly scared to go back to treatment because I signed a release of information to my dcfs worker. And I she finds out I was using my chances of getting my son back lessen. I’m so ashamed and I just need some prayers of strength right now my son is my whole world and I feel like I can’t have an honest treatment because I’m scared to be honest advice? Please
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4480 days clean… you got this girl!!!
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I used to use cocaine. It started off recreational, then 3 to 5 days a week… when it stops being"fun" that’s when you know.
I was at the level of “just a little pick me up before work” after a night out, and the “just a little one to get me started” before a night out, and the “alright just a little one to keep me going and in the right mood” whilst on a night out… and 4-6 nights out in a week was normal… It went from being “just a little extra fun” to being the thing my main focus was on. Pretty much all of my friends here in the town I live is using,
I´m only 14 days sober and clean and no one else is even thinking about quitting.
You can get through it, it´s so hard but it will be worth it in the end.
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Hi everyone. Thank you all for sharing with me. Had a relapse yesterday, but back on track and feel ready this time. Here we go…
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I would say don’t beat yourself up too bad. But do analyze what brought on your lapse, obviously getting wrapped up and seeing old friends can do that. And if they’re using its easy to justify it. I feel this way, having someone offer you some is second nature to them and because of your addiction it’s second nature to accept it. Try and take the thought of that and realize that you can overcome it. Honestly, sometimes just vocalizing “no, I’m taking a break” can be enough to motivate and empower yourself in the moment. Friends will obviously respond in their own way, but so many people I know will say “yeah, I should probably stop too.”
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@Livy yep, it was a friend I was with. Unfortunately, I didn’t say no - hard when it’s right in front of you. I woke up feeling really guilty the next day, but then almost calm throughout the day because I feel ready this time. Only time will tell, but I’m going to tell my friend what’s happening and how much it means to me to stick to my convictions.
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It’s all good, the exact thing happened to me a few weekends ago! A lapse like that definitely makes you realize how much you do want to stop so for me it’s been a blessing in disguise. I restarted my sober calculator even though I didn’t need to but I still count the days before 
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