Hi @ariana2607 I’m sorry you are having difficulty. I had 13 months then relapsed, so you always have to be on guard. 121 days is amazing! and you should be proud, but as @Melrm mentioned abstaining is not the same as sobriety. After a few months it is usually the right time to start addressing why you drink, and building on positive life changes to replace it. I have more work myself, but have made some positive changes.
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