Today is my son’s birthday, he passed away October 8,2016… And I want to drink smoke and do lots of drugs right now… I have been sober for 3 months and smoke free for 2 months… And drug free for 1 month… But today… Holy fffffffck… It’s hitting me hard…
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I am so sorry to hear that. Think of how proud he is of you staying clean. Let yourself feel whatever you feel. I know pain can be overwhelming but the only way to conquer it is to feel it. Cry, laugh, scream, whatever helps get it out. My prayers are with you.
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What you are feeling are true and honest emotions. They are human. The sadness anger pain. But they are also a tribute to how you feel and felt about your child. All alcohol will do is mask and dull those feelings. And then tomorrow you will feel physically horrible and mentally beaten. Be strong for the memory of your loved one. Let your sobriety today be a show of strength for them.
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@Miki33 Maybe you can’t be happy right now but you can stay away from booze and drugs. That’s closer to contentment. I hope you have someone local you can reach out to. Maybe make an exception and got to a meeting?
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Thanks Leila… That was awesome…
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@LeilaBird is spot on, yet again. @Miki33, honor your son by staying sober and actually celebrate his birthday for him. You know he would want you to be happy and content. Get to a meeting, stay extra close this forum if you have to. Just don’t drink/use.
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Thanks everyone… I made it… 
it was really tough… But I over compensated with eating and I took a nap… Lol made sure to halt and keep my mind busy…
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So glad you made it!
Food and sleep are both good things. Try and be easy on yourself all weekend. You need it.
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Congratulations! I’m so glad you made it through that really rough day. You showed yourself how strong you are and that you got this. Treat yourself to something nice!
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