Well Iām 25 years old and have battled with addiction for a decade of my life now. Valium and opiate pain pills which lead to injecting heroin for the last 8 months I have literally scared myself silly. Itās like playing Russian roulette with a loaded gun, every time. I Donāt want that life I know that now, I canāt understand why I was doing it. I engage in lots of support groups with mutual aid which is excellent to have because if they wernt on offer I would have no body. Iām so thankful for being alive and hope that I can maintain being sobar because I know it is the only way to have a chance at a long happy lifeā¦ #feelingoptimistic #lovemutualaid #itgetsbetter any advice on relapse prevention would be welcome Iām currently slowly detoxing from methadone also and I canāt stand the aches and the cramps and sweats all of the time hurry up and pass it doesnāt stop me feeling positive positive tho Iām also addicted to sex and love which sounds crazy but I need to learn to be ok on my own now and itās harder than giving up heroin. Any advice on that would be great??? thanks for listening peeps
Here are just a few links from fellow community members that can relate to your struggle. I hope you find them helpful also, if you click the search icon and type āsex addiction, heroin addiction, love addictionā you can find topics relating to your story. Welcome to the forum its nice to meet you
God it felt really good seeing the supportive comments! Thanks guys about your sex addiction I know how you feel I have so many shameful painful memories that drugs was the only way to suppress them, that is the hardest part about my recovery, and still nowā¦ How do you learn to forgive yourself? Itās so hard!! Now 10days without heroin or Valium and itās all I can think about how sad I have an elastic band around my wrist for negative thoughts twanging it now lol
@Kate_Embleton a recovery program (NA, AA) will help you to work on the underlying issues, learn to forgive yourself and others, to set down that heavy baggage and walk lighter in sobriety.
Iām hoping so! Thanks
@Kate_Embleton, welcome. This is a good place thank you for joining us. And keep coming back. Iām a sex addict. In addition, Iām also an emotional, social, and love anorexic. So my acting out behaviors are probably different from yours. But I knew a lot of women that were coming out of sex and love addiction. Whew! The love addiction was really tough to deal with. My heart truly went out when they shared. After awhile, we allow ourselves to get confused with what sex and love are. And we end up pursuing counterfeits instead of being attracted to the real thing. Hats off to you for working on getting your life back. And at such an early age.
Love addiction is one of the hardest definitely, Iāve āfallen in loveā so many times yet Iām not sure if I have I kind of just go through the motions create a really good sex life then I self destruct it. Now being alone i feel as if Iām dealing with 4 or 5 break ups because Iāve never dealt with them by being alone but jumping straight into something. Soul destroying. Or can I just not find the one lolā¦ I have only been ācleanā from sex for a couple of days itās like I canāt function if no body wants me and if someone does itās not enough I need 2 or 3 itās so shameful! I have so many unwanted memories and regrets and being drug free is making me face them!! Yeah lol
A lot of us are dealing with depression/anxiety, past trauma and abuse, and other issues that surface after we get sober. You can numb it out, but itās still there. As painful and uncomfortable as it is, this is where the healing begins. Use your experiences later to help others and youāll heal even more.
Im over one yr clean from heroin and im feeling lots better. More hopeful for my future.
Seems like confidence gets stronger the longer you are sober