Hi @MarsArgo. I never had a sponsor, but I don’t think it makes much sense to not be 100% honest with them, even if they react negatively. Were you calling or reaching out to your sponsor before a relapse? That is one of their main responsibilities - no matter what time of day or night.
It’s ok to feel a bit disappointed and maybe even a bit guilty, but not shame. If this was cancer you were battling, would you feel shame if it got the best of you at times? No. It’s the same kind of struggle, just that “normies” have a hard time seeing it that way.
I see a number of people out here today struggling with slip/relapse. I would recommend spending some time studying relapse prevention and how to deal with cravings. Some good resources are in these posts: