Hey everyone, a few people smarter people than I told me to start coming on here daily to help me stay sober. So, here I am after a day of no drinking and drugs. My body is so tired and trying recoup after my most recent bender, I did a bunch of cocaine, no alcohol. Surprisingly, I thought my cocaine addiction was only a problem if i drank, but in recent time I have realised that isnt the case. It almost feels like I stopped craving alcohol and only crave cocaine now. Maybe because the high is stronger. This seems like a bad sign, some kind of progression in the disease I suspect.
I saw that this app connects to betterhelp - online counselling, has anyone tried it? Ive never done counselling but Im sure it would be helpful for me.
I need to go back to NA meetings, I dont know why I stopped after the 2nd meeting, i just remember getting in my vehicle and rushing out of there. It was closed meeting and it was super busy, like 100 people. A tad overwhelming. Also, the closed disscussion was uncomfortable. I feel like Ill never know what to say in the moment, Id rather write something and read it and just improvise. But yea, my intuition tells me to go back, so I will. People are probably wondering where I went, or I guess they must have an idea.
Alright, well thank god for coffee, and thank god for all of you. What a beautiful online community. All the best on battle today. Ill check in tomorrow as well.
Glad you are still here. Meetings in person or zoom sound like a good idea for you. I spent so much time on here once I found this app…it helped so much…especially when feeling shaky. Someone is always around to talk with and always a ton to read. Cocaine was particularly hard on me as that crash after was so soul sucking. A terrible roller coaster. Keep checking in!
A lot about your story resonates with me. Similar in a number of ways.
I have found these amazing folks just insanely caring and supportive. I wouldn’t have gotten through today without their help. I hope you experience the same.
My old therapist told me the road to sobriety is a hard road to walk but look around and you see it is also a well trodden road.
Im trying to use the strength here to grow my strength
Its nice to hear that you relate to my story. I’m starting to see that there are many many people going through what I am. Its nice to find people who understand and dont judge.
Definitely see you around. Yeah ive been on and off here since November. You are right no judgement. I have never been judged. Only support and advice.
Yep the awesome thing is we all mix with all types of people from serial relapsers (like myself currently) to veteran addicts with decades of clean years under their belt.
Im trying to view this journey as the journey to becoming a qualified accountant. It was numerous intense years of full time work and exams every 6 months. It was gruelling. But i got through it 1 exam at a time and I even got used to it.
This journey will be hard. But we can do it. 1 day at a time until one day we realise we went a whole day without thinking about it. We will get used to it.
Im new here as well i got a little over 18 months clean and life is better i plan on being here ever day now as well we got this one day at a time one thought at a time
