So my story with alcohol is as follows, high school well paid summer job older friends party every night after work. Turned into college day drinking with friends, turned into late nights at bars 3/4 times a week. Turned into a well paying job that one person of influence mentioned going to the bar could be considered work. Turned into million dollar deals over shots. Turned into me thinking I was invincible. Turned into a doctor’s visit with bloodwork that made the doctor question how I was standing. Turned into me saying I was fine. I slowed my roll until more money started coming. A bad break up drove me to the club’s. I found someone, but partied more then ever. Till one day I woke up and she told me what I did the night before. My drinking was out of control They’re was no limit, I was out of control… i’ve told everyone I’m done and I mean it. But I got a raise at work and I did a shot and had one drink (I used to drink 2/4 bottles a night) I felt weird about it but thought it would be socially unacceptable to deny. A week later I was DD and saw an old “attractive” friend at the bar and paid for our drinks while talking (we split ways after I didn’t drink)… the other night I was asked to meet up with friends at a club where everyone knew me. I ended up arriving first and opening a tab as to not seem strange I ordered my drink of choice and a water. I drank is slowly until they arrived 45 minutes late (who sits at a bar with a drink for 45 minutes and doesn’t drink it? I would’ve looked strange ordering just a water with an open tab) they come over I ordered a round. I get a complimentary drink (I know it was made better than the first) I ordered another water and drank it over the next hour. My buddy arrives i order everyone another two rounds.i just get waters when no one’s looking and put in a lime. He picks up the next two rounds. Everyone wants to do shots… I ordered a round and took part. This is my third drink in 4 hours which for me feels like I’m a salmon in a dessert. We all go dance I ordered a few more rounds. We leave go get food. Bid the girls adieu in a cab, and go to another bar to meet a friend. He tells me he’s disappointed I did a shot. I don’t tell him about the two drinks. I downloaded an app that brought me here this was 3 nights ago. I don’t want to drink. My entire social scene revolves around late nights at bars. My blood pressure and blood work are at a three year best as of yesterday my doctor is impressed… I lost some family recently very young and on the path I was on so I know I can’t keep doing what I was doing. It’s hard. When I’m at events with open bars constantly. Anyone have experience with AA?
Thank you for sharing @Lookingforbeauty stick to your choice if you really want to quit. You got into this forum and thats something big 
i do atend AA and i love it. Also got a sponsor and working the program. I do live in Norway, not the usa. But Aa are the same world wide.
@Lookingforbeauty. Thanks for sharing that. Sounds alot like the path I was going down and it seems like you know where it leads and your ready to make some positive changes in your life. I know it sounds tough and sounds like your trying to hide that you dont want to drink in front of friends. Good friends will be happy and proud of you of your decision and that you are sticking to it. The others well it will be different but you will be happier in the long run. Healthier and eventually you will be rid of a destructive habit and be able to enjoy life on a whole new level. Keep coming back and wish you best. Stay strong bud.