Welcome to Talking Sober Shans. Hope this place can be helpful to you. It sure has been to me.
As to advice - I don’t have much I’m afraid. I hear you on the difficult situation you are in. I feel you already took the first step you needed to take: looking for outside input and help. Looking for your peers in this case. We can’t do this all by ourselves. And here we’re in it together. Hoping you find the support you need friend. Love and hugs.
Maybe this thread can be of some help to you. Not exactly fits your description but still there might be something there for you. Hope so. Wishing you all success. 
