I don’t think you’ve relapsed at all. Sounds like you haven’t stopped drinking!
You need to change something. There’s so much info and knowledge on this forum. There’s also AA.
Resources for our recovery
Advice for the Newcomer and Constant Relapser
Pick a few things and stick with them. Report back on how you’re doing on this thread. Stay in touch.
IF NOTHING CHANGES, NOTHING CHANGES.