Today is 18 months sober, 18 freaking months. When I got sober, it was an impossible dream, it was the windmills beyond the bars.
I was a bottom feeding, do anything to get drunk, neglectful, lazy, abusive, manipulative, heartless, selfish son of a bitch as a drunk. Terrible things, I’ve done them. Longing to end it all, absolutely wanted to. Nihilistic, that was the currency of my existence.
Today I am a much better father, husband, son, brother, worker, friend, a much better human. I care about people, I have love for people and for myself again, I have dreams that I work for and aren’t just wishes upon a star but are achievable. Today I am Honest, Openminded and Willing.
If I can get and stay sober, ANY ONE OF YOU CAN. If I can be happy, productive and comfortable in my own skin, ANY ONE OF YOU CAN.
Throw the kitchen sink at your sobriety, at yourself. There wasn’t a thing I didn’t do, AA, both meetings and services and the events they throw, IOPs, therapy both couple and individual, dropped a lot of friends people I have trusted and known for over a decade, walked/exercised, found a higher power whom I still talk to, I became part of this great community. There’s always more work to be done. Do the stuff that makes you anxious, the uncomfortable stuff, if you only do the comfortable stuff you’ll stunt your personal growth.
Keep trudging folks, you are the key to your own lock.
congratulations friend, keep at it!
