I have been trying to get sober for soooo long on my own…I am ready to get off the roller-coaster of addiction. I am here to admit that I have no control over alcohol and I never will.
I need to connect with others who understand. The shame and isolation has kept me drinking.
I grew up surrounded by alcoholics and enablers…so support from family not going to happen. Alcoholism is in my DNA…awesome right?!
I have been a very type A, perfectionist most of my life so, just writing this is probably the hardest/healthiest thing I’ve ever attempted.
Welcome Tif. I was exactly you a month ago and this place has kept me focused and sober. I tried several times alone but never made it, and this time feels different because everyone is so supportive.
Awesome job ! Hope and Love to you. Im on day 10 after an ugly 2 month binge. Found a great AA group that has really made a huge difference. Hoping maybe you can find the same. I believe in you !!!
Wow. That sounds so familiar. Similar family background, struggles with perfectionism, roller coaster of addiction with alcohol over the last ten years. I’m almost at day 7 sober. Been struggling with alcohol for so long and it only got worse and worse. I honestly didn’t think I could make it 7 days. Last time I made it this far was a few years ago now. I’m determined this time and this community has helped so much. I’ve honestly never felt so hopeful. Not gonna lie, getting to this one week has not been easy, but keep scrolling and reading. There’s so much good advice, tips and resources and support. It’s made all the difference for me!!! I needed to reach out day two and three. Really thought I would slip but I didn’t. It’s getting easier to distract myself, notice my triggers and deal with them right away. Still fighting cravings one by one but it’s all worth it. I just said this to someone else but it’s totally true… Remember the craving will pass much faster than the feeling of regret that will eat away at you if you let your addiction take control. You are stronger than you know. We are stronger together. Reach out anytime and I’ll try to be there, if not, there are sooooo many people here ready to listen and support and share. I’m grateful to everyone♥️
Thank you, sounds like we can be a great support for each other. I can usually make it about 3 days but by day 4 I start telling myself all kinds of stories about how I can control it, blah, blah, blah it always ends the same way…I have no control.
So I will definitely be on this forum every day. I made it 2 weeks about 3 yrs ago. Since then its a 3 to 4 day stretch at the most. I can easily drink everyday and sometimes all day…its so gross and I hate myself for it.
I really need to stay sober. I don’t want to end up like so many of my dead relatives, they all died of alcohol related illnesses, although their doctor would never say it and nobody in the family talks about it. It’s just accepted as normal, super dysfunctional.
Oh yeah it’s way too easy to start making excuses. I looked at my journal today from I think it was 4 years ago before I ever joined the site but I kept a journal of all of the reasons I hated alcohol. Then on the next page I would say , I feel like I can control it I’m going to allow myself just one… And all the sudden I’m still journaling but my writing is almost illegible. This journal went on till the end of the book up and down up and down. Try again- try again -try again. There’s a point that you get to and you kind of know this really is your last chance and that’s where I’m at. Absolutely no excuses and I’m not going to start to feel good and then forget and think I can have just one because I know I can’t. I’m starting to really enjoy being present in the moment. Once I get past those cravings and find things I enjoy, I feel high on being sober. I’m feeling emotions much more deeply and seeing the world with much more Beauty. I’ve been feeling tired in the late morning and afternoon but I’m allowing myself to rest… Something I never do. I’m connecting more with my daughter. Tonight she played a song on the piano and let me sing along with her (she’s 16 so that’s a huge moment). I just felt this moment of … Words can’t even explain… AHA. This is why it’s all worth it. To experience moments like this- feel true connection to ourselves and the people we love.
Welcome to this great community Tif.
A bit of your story sounds familiar.
Perfectionist
Tried to get sober on my own couldn’t.
Been around alcoholics/addicts all my life
Found this app on my 2nd day sober✅
Too hungover my first day sober.
It took my knowledge of addiction, this App with lots of support, my God, and humility to ask for help when I am struggling to get and stay sober.
Have a good read around. Join in when your comfortable. I started on the gratitude thread.
Every single day I start my day with gratitude.
Come on over. We’re always open. Coffee’s always on.
In recovery, we either learn to be grateful, or we don’t last. Gratitude is the air of recovery. Gratitude is what makes the lungs of recovery fill, the heart beat, and the life flow.
Welcome @TIF and to @Manysparrows and @Carol2 too! 18 days sober here and a lot of it has to do with this site, I have to think. I’m glad you are here and I’m glad you are making this effort. I wish you strength and peace on the way.
