Please help me anyone, anything. The force of nature has been dragged out of me and stomped to pieces. I’m so depressed, my anxiety is shit. Why? Why do I feel helpless sober and when I’m drunk I feel invisible. Bipolar depression and alcohol do not mix.
Alcohol is extremely powerful, and i struggle, with my mind, I been drinking basically my whole life, I have tried quitting many times, but every time I relapse It just seems to get worse, I read recovery books, I been to alcoholics anonymous, and i still drink, alcohol was fun for me for many years, I love the feeling of escaping my thoughts. But today i give my alcoholism to a higher power, because I don’t wanto drink anymore.
I know the feeling of anxiety very well but if you throw yourself in the fellowship it will go away for the most part eventually you will feel comfortable and have a beautiful life I just celebrated a year a few weeks ago I never thought that was possible I got faith in you you can do this
I’m right there with you. Today is day 2 for me, and it’s been so hard. But with the support from even just this forum, I know it will help. Someone in my first AA meeting told me: “it’s not going to be even close to easy, but this journey to recovery will be worth it a thousand times over and might just save your life”
I know how you feel. I’m on day 1 and I’m struggling… I hate alcohol so damn much but I feel like I need it. I can’t do anything without it anymore. I hope it gets better for you and me both. Good luck. Do not give up.