I hit 20 days today, and i felt really good up until last night, me and my gf watched a movie called “beautiful boy” and it really made me feel powerless ti my addictions, this is not my first time trying to get clean and sober, so it resonated deep, the kid made over 430 days, and relapsed, and as much as i feel in control right now, i know all it takes is 1 bad day, and its making me want to use just knowing how easy i can slip, and how fast progress can turn into nothing, im staying insanely busy to keep myself from craving, but all in all, today is hard, and i dont like feeling like its inevitable that i will fail, as i have every time before, this community has been quite helpful.
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Stay strong friends