11:49 pm. This time Will always mean something. August 29. This date Will also always mean something. I never thought it would come to this again, but it has been 24 hours since my first cut in over 2.5 years. It wasnt as satifying or worth it as i thought it would be. Instead of so called “feeling better” i feel worse. But im working on getting back up again. Im starting with staying off social media for about a week for now. Its why i was triggered. Compared my self harm to others and that destroyed me. So far day one is done. My next step is to try and accept the fact that this happened for a reason. This experience made me realize i never wanna relapse again. It wasnt worth it. It didnt give me the thrill it used to back then. I want to try to do things that would help calm my mind during an episode. Its only a day but all thats matters is that I want to try to get better. We will see how that goes.
