Although I am not super active in chats if you look i do read and like posts for support and try help where i can. Today marks 28 days (which sadly calculates to 3 days a year on average over 9.5 years of drinking) and i am certain i would have failed by now if it wasnt from help from all of you. Its still rough, my legs still shake, i am still on valleum/diazapan i still need sleeping pills, my brains left rarely connects with the right, I fall over nothing, i am moody, i break out into tears daily, i have vivid nightmares and daymares, I have been admitted to hospital, I get snappy but have learnt to try calm down myself (to the person who said quitting coffee day 1 was worse than alcohol i apologise for all the filthy messages i wroteā¦ but didnt sendš£) after abusing my body daily for 9+ years i knew it was going to be hardā¦ but not this hard. Thank you all for your help so farā¦ i still need a lot of it. I go to rehab this thursday for 7-10 days I am going to miss my 4 beautiful kidlets and wife (with no contact with the outside world including phones) to try get off codine, cigarettes and now valleum, and have my first ātherapyā lessons on how to stay sober. I never attended AA in this town as (mainly pride) i have looked after (the finances and loans etc etc) the two salvation army peoples finances as a Westpac Bank Manager for over 6 years. I look forward to all of your continued support and will stay on here definitely to pay it forward and to try stay sober myself.
Love you all, Dan
P.s. hope this all made sense
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@Zeus 28 days is excellent! Iām so proud of you! Hang in there, you will get through these trials! Praying for you brother! Blessings! 
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