3 months strong! But

I am so very, very proud to say that I am over 3 months sober. My journey has been fairly easy because of my friends and family that support me and my decision to live a sober life.

With that being said, I am wavering between the idea of having a drink or two with my younger brother on his birthday: January 6th. The only reason I am entertaining the idea of drinking is because it will be for his 21st… I feel like I can handle it, but I am equally scared to become enticed to continue after his birthday. I have a highly addictive personality, so I am nervous that I will fall back into my destructive routine. However, this is a significant birthday for my little brother. I’m really not sure how to proceed…

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I hear ya! I’m the same way! I feel like I can handle it but am afraid one night out will lead to 3 to 4 again! I’m so weeks no alcohol and am gonna keep it going! I’m sure ull make the right decision that’s best for you! :slight_smile:

Don’t, he will understand. HIM having his first legal drink is fine but there is no reason to risk your sobriety on a birthday. Are you entertaining the idea because you think it’s going to be important to him? Or because you are looking for a legitimate excuse to indulge? Even if you could theoretically “handle it” would you really want an experience that is going to reinforce that you like drinking? I have an incredibly addictive behavior pattern as well and from my own experience there is only ever the illusion of control with drinking. The last time I relapsed before I quit for good was because I was going to have two beers with a friend who I hadn’t seen in almost 15 years who didn’t know I was struggling with alcohol. That spiraled into almost a week of drinking “in control” not blacking out, or doing anything stupid, just having a few drinks everyday. Which then snowballed into the worst relapse I’ve ever had. All using the same logic. I guess really ask yourself if you are drinking for him or for yourself because you think you miss it?

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Great job on the 3 months! Stay away from it thou show your brother you dont need it to have fun. Thats a good lesson at his age and a good example.