Time and time again I’ve started my sober journey failing for years. I never understood why. Probably because I actually didn’t even want too. I did it for other people. I always planned on returning. K always kept friends and numbers. So I always relapsed. Lost my favorite job. Lost a lot of people I really loved. Hurt the ones closest too me. But this time after going to AA and na meetings. Man I hate them. Never thought it was for me. But a year or 2 of them I finally found that 1 question. What am I greatful for? I couldn’t figure it out. I mean I’m greatful for a tone of things. But what in my life am I greatful for? My life my friends family my house. After falling off the horse again and ending up in the back of a cop car because I told myself I can handle my drinks and clearly couldn’t. It clicked. This is why I’m sober. I don’t want to end up here. People watching me in the back of the car. Laughing at me. My friend taking time away from his gf to drive me home… and me yelling at him for nothing… It clicked never again. And I feel certain I really hope I don’t fall again. But man when it clicked it clicked. I don’t even think about it anymore. I’m almost more proud of it now that I don’t drink rather than me being embarrassed that I can’t drink with others…today I am 30 days sober from alcohol. I’m about 6 months sober from drugs. I’m proud of myself. My friend think I’ll relapse and do t believe this is a true finish. Which is a real big put down. But for myself it a win. I finally won!
The parallels between your story and mine are many. I don’t know if I’ve “clicked” but I know that I want to be able to trust myself. I never will be able to when alcohol is part of my life. Big congratulations! A huge accomplishment! I’m on day 5 and can’t wait to be where you are. 
You know. I failed so many times I just told myself that sobriety isn’t for me. Ending up in the hospital multiple times, behind random weirdos cars. I always just shrugged it off. Oh I’m young I’ll stop eventually. But then 7years went buy and I’m still doing the same shit. I couldn’t control my liquor or my pills and I’d mix and match. I don’t care the time or place. Sitting with my friends family and grandparents while I was high out of my mind at a fancy restaurant should have been the clue for me or me needing to move 8 states away and losing my job on a ship should have been it. Lol it’s funny because I’ve never been in trouble before I technically I wasn’t that night either cops were just trying to help me out but man I was not great. And I treated everyone like they were the problem. I hope you find your way. It’s hard but take it day by day. Don’t set weekly or monthly goals set daily goal. Today only matters worry about tomorrow when the time comes and continue. Theirs so much fun out there that doesn’t involve drinking or being near drinks that make the day fun and go by quicker. When you find your click it’ll be easier and I hope you do. Stay strong. I’m here for you. Proud of your sobriety! Keep going(:
Congrats on 30 days sober from alcohol and 6 months from drugs.
It clicked for me back on October 16th, 2021. I got tired of the bullshit, honestly. I couldn’t live a drunken life anymore. I did it for myself, but I also did it for my wife and kids.
My life isn’t perfect, but it’s 100 times better sober.
Wish u the best.
Congrats thats awesome to read. I tried unsuccessfully to quit many times but I too feel as if something clicked this last time.
I’ve never thought of it that way but thats exactly how it feels.
I used that determination to quit, to change my habits and behaviors.
Congrats man! We all just take it a day at a time. I’d rather go through my tough shit sober than barreling myself through self destruction as I usually do. Here’s to better clearer days!
Thanks for sharing Gaby. It’s a big realisation when it finally clicks. I’m 43 days and yep… it’s absolutely time for me.
@AbbyNormal so hard to stop drinking when you’re young and everyone around you is drinking. It’s awesome to see you around here at day 5! It just gets better from here for you.
There’s a post at the moment about what you love about sobriety and man I could have been writing for hours. Ask me what I love about drinking and I don’t think I could put a single TRUE reason down.