Hey everyone! I’m new to this community, I don’t really know how it works yet but I’m already really liking what I see. I am 31 days sober from marijuana.
I am a social worker, and I feel ashamed for what I have been doing all these years, my last 2 positions were in addiction recovery and I was lying to myself and everyone else the whole time. My parents were supporting me and basically funding my addiction. They are both in recovery (mom-34 years, dad- since july) and I feel as if I’ve let them down. They both say they are proud of me and not mad at me, but I know their trust for me has gone way down.
I’m trying to focus on the positives though- I’ve made it this far and I know I can go further. I also was having severe night sweats since I started smoking (I guess my body was detoxing every night?) and I never would have thought the weed was causing it until they started going away when I stopped. I can now sleep a whole night without sweating, which for a 25 year old, is a big deal lol. My mom is going to help by sending me some books that helped her with her sobriety and I’ve filled out a worksheet that was used in my last job. Never thought I’d be filling it out myself. I start a new job Monday (this time not in addiction recovery, I have a ways to go before I can do that work again) and I will need to stay on track when the stress. I’m probably rambling now but I thank anyone who takes the time to read this. I’m glad I have found this community.