I made it 45 days and then had to be in a friend’s wedding, kept it cool and calm and had 2 beers throughout the day…i thought to myself this is great I have this under control. Well then the night came and course everyone wanted to go to a strip club. I agreed and then realized how awkward it is to be in a strip club sober. So on cone the shots, and double makers and gingers. And more shots and next thing you know I have made a huge mistake. Went and spent all of me and my wife’s money and made a complete ass of myself. And she doesn’t want me to feel bad and just says it’s ok it was for his bachelor party. Then the next morning to hit the restart button killed me…so here I am on day 3…hoping to push for a lifetime now.
Relapses suck, and they do happen. Did you identify your trigger(s)? It seems like it all started with those 2 beers.
I feel like my trigger is all from peer pressure. I held strong and lost the want or need of alcohol. But then friends will say it’s cool let’s just have a few, and when I had the 2 beers at home it was no problem but then going out in public I just turn into a different person and go from 1 drink to hammered in about an hour.
45 days is still a huge accomplishment should be easier to go longer next time. Sounds like an isolated incident and just need to work on your resistance when friends become pushy. Good lesson for all of us though can’t say i wouldnt have messed up either.
You didn’t relapse, you lapsed. Huge difference, especially mentally.
Stay strong and do it again!
It’s good that you’ve identified a trigger! That will help you next time you are tempted. Now you can try to avoid those scenarios, especially in the early days.