Well, I blew it. 6 days down the drain. I had a beer while out to dinner with my Fiancé. I am very disappointed in myself. He helped me stop at 1 which at first I was pissed about it and had to refrain from saying something i would regret, but I know he is trying to help me because he cares about me. I feel aweful.
I’m sad that I am so weak and pathetically addicted to alcohol that I couldn’t make to one week.
Any reason he didn’t speak up about ordering the first?
Sobriety isn’t easy so please stop being so hard on yourself. I know I need a lot of support and I get it from this forum and AA meetings. You can’t do this alone… i learned that the hard way. Be kind to yourself and have patience. Try again … you can do it
Don’t be too down on yourself, it’s so hard quitting something that is so socially acceptable. It’s just a bump in the road, not the end of it. Think of yourself as an award winning recipe, it takes time and a lot of trial and error to get there! But it will be worth it 
Hi. Don’t be too hard. Dust down. If you go sober from today you’ll be on day 7 on Christmas day. 
Thank you all for your kind words.
@alpine_1975 I’m not sure. He might have been working up the courage to say something. He is an amazing human being. He gently reminded me that I would have to reset my timer in the app. I of couse started to make excuses for drinking it and he said that I needed to stick to my goal and that I don’t need the beer. He’s right and I know it. He doesn’t drink. At all. Over the 8 years we have been together he has drank less that a dozen times and even then it’s a beer or two. He has always disliked that I drink so much. I’m glad he spoke up, even if it was after I had ordered it.
The reality of being an addict is hard to come to terms with. I am so mad that I can’t control it. I keep thinking, why shouldn’t I be allowed to be like everyone else. But the reality it that I am not…and I need to face that fact.
Thank you, everyone… for your support. I am grateful for your kind, strong words of encouragement…even though you don’t know me. I have felt alone in this for so long and I am so happy to have found this app and forum.
dont be to hard on yourself - many people dont even try going sober.
So big up to you - Dust yourself off and try again