I’m new to not drinking and a program of any kind; I still haven’t chosen what may be a fit for me and honestly this is my first attempt of any kind. Apart of me wonders if I have even come to the conclusion alcohol is a problem for me and if I have to stop drinking ( I know the real answer inside, I just want it to be different). I have been sober for 73 days and I’m finding myself really starting to feel a lot of emotions about it. Angry I can’t drink, angry with those who can, as though I failed as I come from a long line of those dependent on substances and wanted to be the one who got away, and can’t stand being in any place that has a bar which is pretty much everywhere. My mood has stabilized, much less labile however, now I’m in a space where I’m missing the fun personality I had when I drank and the idea that maybe alcohol has been in between truly getting to know the real me from the get go; there for being with a complete stranger day in and day out and being forced to get to know them. Posting as I am wondering if this has happened for others during their 70-90 days and to just get this outside of my mind, suggestions and thoughts of any kind are appreciated.
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Congratulations 
on your 73 days! You’re doing awesome
Hugs
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Learning about the new you is going to take years not days so yes this is all very normal. I personally found it easier with a program / set of guidelines to help me understand where I stood in the pecking order of life. Congratulations on your sober time though because right now that’s the priority and everything else will happen as and when it should.
Sobriety is not a destination it’s a journey.
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