Hi all,
I’m new to the site. Have been on a journey for the last 3 years trying to get sober. I got a DUI and took 3 months off the drink to prove I could. But I now know I was just counting it down until I could drink again. I ended up in rehab last April and thought it worked because I was sober for 9 months. But then my mind told me I was fine, that I wasn’t an alcoholic, that I’d never been that bad. Before you know it I’m drinking 24/7 again. I’m 11 days clean now and am going to aa and have blind faith that it is working for others so if I keep going it should work for me too. My trouble is the furthest I get from my last drink the more convinced I am that I’m OK. Need to remember my dark times but not dwell on them.
I’m a lying, deceitful, manipulative and vicious person when I drink. All I want is drink over everything else in my life. I don’t want to be that person anymore.
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Hi everyone I am Harley and new to Talking Sober and trying to get used to this app. Today is day 1 of my new commitment on becoming sober. Like most I have a super busy life I work constantly when I am off for relaxation all I think about is having a drink. So instead of having 1 drink I have another and another and so on. It calms my nerves and helps me sleep. I am a military reservist as well so I have to stay somewhat in shape with workout routines and it seems my drinking sabatages my fitness. I am tired of living like this and I know I need to change.