I am currently waiting at the restaurant for my real dad. Despite his continuous mental, physical and emotional abuse we’ve patched things up and we’re slowly rebuilding contact
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Dinner was great, I rode on the back of a motorcycle for the first time in my life afterwards
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My stepdad his situation worsened a lot. I’m going to see him tomorrow to make sure he won’t die while he thinks I may dislike him. The guilt would be to much for this already way to bumpy period and I am certain that I would relapse if he dies thinking I dislike him. He may die tonight tho
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July 18th 2020
My mom can’t find anyone to take over her shift. The earliest I can see my stepdad now is Monday if he is still alive then
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He may have a virus and if he has that virus, people under 18 are not allowed to visit
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Take it moment by moment
Im sure your stepdad knows you love him
Try to help out your mom as much as possible. Im sure she could use the help and love.
Ill be thinking of you
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Also if you need someone to listen, im here and so is everyone here
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How is everything today?
Are you staying srong?
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I’m holding up. I don’t have cravings at the moment. I have laid on the couch with my stepdad’s dog for a while. The dog feels my sadness and tries to cheer me up. Such a precious creature
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i loove dogs and yes i know for a fact the pups knows how you are feeling
what kind of dog??
boy or girl??
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It’s a boy. He is, what we call in Dutch, a dumpster dog. He is a mix of about 10 different races
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In Swedish we call that a railroad crossing breed. I hope everything turns out to the best for all of you.
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I fucking loved it. I once drove an old vespa and thought it was a good idea to brake with the rear wheel in the turn of a gravel road. RIP vespa and pants I was wearig
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I’m very sorry to hear about your step dad’s condition man. I hope everything turns out okay…stay strong.
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Sorry to hear he’s taken a turn for the worse Dutchy. I hope you get to see him Monday. Say strong and know you’re not alone in this. You have a lot of people here who care about you. 
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July 21st 2020
I see there’s no room for talking about moderate use on this forum, so that’s why I’ve removed the former contents of this post
I’ve got to vent, or I’ll probably push my anger away and eventually explode. This will be a nagging post, so if you don’t want to read a post of me nagging, you don’t have to read it.
I just made a thread about experimenting with moderate use. A subject I have talked about on this forum quite a bit. No one ever told me that I shouldn’t. I had no clue I was doing something wrong since I warned everyone in big bold letters not to do it themselves. But my thread was removed without warning.
This made me really upset and made me want to make a new thread aimed at the moderators. Luckily I’ve obtained self control and not actually done that, because I understand why it was deleted. The fact that it got deleted isn’t the thing that upset me I see now. It’s the fact that I unintentionally may have put the recovery of people at risk without someone telling me. I don’t want to risk anyone’s recovery by posting something. And I also disagree with the fact that I didn’t get a heads-up or was told how to change my post so that it was allowed.
If the moderator who deleted said thread reads this. Next time give a heads-up please so I could have deleted it myself or edited it to be allowed. I’m not upset with you, I know you just did what you have to do.
All my other posts concerning the subject have been edited to not contain anything related to the subject anymore
Apparently regulars can move threads to the seeking help category, which happened with my thread
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To clarify, moderators did not move nor delete your post and if we did, we would let you know. Most likely by private message. Moderators and members with regular status are able to move threads to tye Seeking Help category, which is an opt in category for those actively using / under the influence.
Also, please know you can always private message the moderators to discuss any questions or concerns.
Everyone here is doing their best and working with good intentions and concern for all members, including the moderators.
One of the basic rules of the forum is to lead with good intentions and assume that others are doing the same…I think this applies here.
I am sorry you were upset by your post being moved by someone. Hopefully all is smoothed over now.
Please feel free to message me if you have any questions. 
Edited to add: @anon89207786 (and all others), moderators DO NOT read all the threads. If you have questions, comments, concerns, please message us directly or tag us individually or @moderators. Thank you!!
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Thank you for your reply 
It’s all smoothed over now. At first I didn’t realise some moved the thread. I thought it was deleted without warning. I now joined the seeking help group so I can prevent similar situations in the future, because than I can see it when my thread gets moved there.
I’m aware you don’t read all posts since you have personal lives. That’s why I wrote “if”