August 19th 2020
I have started this school year off great. I already didn’t make my homework 
Now in the train to school, but I’ll first by some notebooks, pens and an agenda since I forgot to buy those
When I was walking to school I saw a girl I’m friends with, but that I’m usually too scared to approach(like all friends I’m not super close with). And I walked too school with her. At school the janitor saw me for the first time in ages, so we had a chat. He told me that he saw that I changed a lot for the better, so that was nice. He then asked if I went to rehab since he had the feeling I was addicted to gaming, so I told him he was right. He ended up knowing th rehab despite it being on the other side of the country. Then during the lunch break I told myself fuck it and walked up to my best friend and his friend group despite my anxiety and it was fun.
During the class afterward I was sitting next to some guys who were talking about GTA V, so currently I’m craving a lot. When I walked to the train a guy that was from my best friend’s friend joined me since he had to catch a train too, and I’m pretty sure I have a new friend now 
Today has so far been a great day for my social anxiety 
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That’s awesome man! I’m glad it’s going well and it seems like it is because of your own efforts. Keep up the good work 
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August 20th 2020
I overslept an hour this morning. I woke up as my train was leaving. Luckily my mom agreed to bring me so that I could be on time still. I ended up being 7 seconds late, but no one gave a shit. I will have to walk home from the train station now, but I’d, it’s always better then 3 hours detention.
During lunch break I joined my best friend again. The people from his group were all playing games together. I cringed of the thought that people were gaming in my view, but there were no cravings somehow. Now I’m on my way home in the train
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August 21st 2020
I got out of bed on time today. In the train ride to school some drug dealing kid who thinks I’m his friend. He kept on talking about games despite me telling him I’m a gaming addict in recovery. Somehow did not get cravings though.
Now I’m sitting at the McDonald’s since my last class of today is in 2 hours
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I hate this never ending heatwave. It’s been going for 2 weeks now. I’m in a permanent sweaty state and I’m constantly thirsty, so I buy things to drink daily and when I’m buying drinks, I also buy food. I regret the amount of money I’ve wasted the last few days. It’s almost an addiction
Can you maybe take a refillable water bottle with you? When I go to work I take an entire extra lunch box full of water with me so that I don’t have to stop places to buy water and then get tempted by snacks etc.
On the other hand, I definitely don’t think that’s the same thing as an addiction since it’s something you need to stay hydrated.
Starting Monday I’ll take a bottle with me to school.
The drinking part is not quite addiction lol, it’s more the urge to buy expensive drinks and snacks that makes it feel like addiction. I rarely beat the urge to do so. I bought a pizza just now without even realising it until I was at the checkout. This week alone I’ve wasted around €50 I think, whilst I only would’ve needed € 2,10 to stay hydrated.
Ohh ok gotcha! Yeah that makes sense, I used to do the same thing and buy way more things than I needed. It will just take some self discipline which you obviously have
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Here we call them Heinz 57…and they are some of the best fur babies:grin:
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And due to them not being generations of inbreds, they are much less likely to get an illness/handicap
Very true although I do have a full blood 100lb pitbull too…
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I had a full blood boerboel. very intimidating beast on the outside, but on the inseide the sweetest dog i’ve ever met. Despite the tons and tons of drewl lol. He sadly had a lot of allergies and illnesses the time we had him. Sadly we had to give him away when we lost our farm
It really suxs when you have to give up your pets …what is a blood boerboel?
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Gorgeous 
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If I ever get a big home, with a big garden and a job which allows me to be home the majority of time, I’ll get oanother boerboel
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Good goal!
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August 22nd 2020
Today was a good old lazy day. Started watching a movie, now going to work and then TS zoom meetings
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August 29th 2020
I’m not feeling good. I’m unmotivated. It’s probably due to my severe cold. Had to get Corona tested, they put one of those things in my nose and it hurt like hell, turned out negative. I’m filling my day watching movies. I can’t come close to family because I could give them a cold, so I’m “banished” to the couch. Let’s hope I’ll feel less like shit soon. I want to be allowed to work and go to school again.
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