Today I went into work. Immediately one of my co workers told me that they are hungover & proceeded to tell me about their weekend of drinking. It’s funny I don’t feel left out anymore from parties or night life like I use to. Even when I see my friends partying on snap chat, it’s a relief knowing I’m not there getting into trouble anymore. It’s the drinking by myself I struggle with, because I know I’m in the safety of my own home and I can’t get into much trouble when I’m alone. I use to get myself into really unsafe situations, but I do everything in my power to avoid that now. How does someone like me recover? The pain I feel after I drink has always been the same though, whether it’s with people or alone. The same shame and disappointment in myself. I am a full day sober today it’s been no problem so far. I’m a little nervous for the next few days when I’ll probably start craving again. But I am determined. I’m lucky because I have a lot of sober friends too, I just need to reach out to hangout with them more.
Maybe a meeting might help you in your journey in soberiety get phone numbers and met new sober people who understand what you are going through wish you well