I was reorganizing some things in the spare bathroom tonight when I pulled out an empty red wine bottle from behind the toilet! I immediately did this involuntary body check to see, to FEEL if the wine was IN me. That bathroom is where I used to stash the recycling before putting it out. It’s probably been there for at least 3 months! I have to admit it made me really uncomfortable to have to handle it and put it outside. I remember now how my mind used to do those body checks in early sobriety every morning when I got out of bed. I was subconsciously checking to see if I had drunk the night before and if I was hung over. Anyone else have these weird body checks?!
No…I don’t think so? In the beginning I woke up hella groggy and had to think about last night and worry if I drank or not. I didn’t, but it’s like I was so used to drinking every night that when I’d first be waking up my brain was confused.
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I’m the same as @Elisabeth. I’ve been putting it down to waking in the dark by the alarm. My dreams are so crazy, they settled down but have come back. I do have a feeling of dread that I might find a bottle somewhere. I used to hate waking in the morning and not remember where I had hidden it.
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I get that. I figure there’s still a couple empty vodka bottles hidden somewhere in this house. All my normal hiding spots have been cleared, but one never knows on a good blackout night what the hell can happen. I remember my biggest freak out would be leaving a partial drank bottle propped in between the two couches where I’d lounge late at night. I’d stumble into the bedroom and pass out and occasionally leave my bottle in the living room semi hidden. I know my wife saw it several times and just left it without saying anything… oh the shame…
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I was just cleaning my cupboards after Christmas shenanigans and just found a can of beer. I’m into my 10th day! Mixed emotions that’s for sure!!! Its going down the sink right now!!
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It is so shaming. I couldn’t risk putting them out in the recycling in case it didn’t get collected and my husband saw so I used to take the bottle in my handbag everyday to walk the dogs at lunchtime and hope that nobody was at the bin (or the bin was full).
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Yep! Same. Every morining and then once I think and know I didn’t drink and that I am SOBER, I feel so happy. Just get through and keep enjoying the feeling of being fresh in the mornings. Goodluck. We got this.
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I know exactly what you mean! I do the same first thing when I wake up in the morning. I think it’s a leftover habit from figuring out how bad I felt and calculating how much I drank the night before. It’s nice to do the check and then just feel proud 
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I think I’ve finally found all my empties in the house. Under the sink in the bathroom was a common place since I used to drink wine while I would take a bath. But I did find a bottle under my bed and in a box full of old purses…for crying out loud. I don’t even remember those ones.