I have a really hard time with weekends. My main problem is I don’t enjoy anything without alcohol. Tonight I walked for miles listening to music just to fight crushing depression.
When it finally went away, I went to the casino. Marched to the bar and ordered a red bull. Lost some money but laughed about it.
Here I am, 2am, sober.
I drove through my party haunts and when you’re sober it seems pathetic.
Haven’t stayed up this late sober… Well I don’t know. Hey no hangover tomorrow. No drunk texts tonight.
Depression is bad but drinking is worse.
How long have you been sober?
I only ask because for me at the beginning I felt the same. Doing things without a drink, where I’d normally be drunk, brought out a physical reaction, an uncomfortable feeling that I thought would never leave. But after a while it lessened.
Do you have support? I never would have been able to do this without AA but there are other ways too that people on this forum use.
Well done on staying sober tonight.
I’ve made it about 4 months before. New job new city. Things are a bit better. I’m in therapy and psychiatry. Neither are foolproof.
Have a really bad knack for partying and not knowing how to stop. Been trying to moderate forever.
I go out and do things but it feels like passing time until I can sleep. Only drunk do I truly feel excited, connected, having fun. It’s a real problem.
Are you getting the help you need for depression?
I’m three months in and I’ve just started getting used to not having ‘exciting’ weekends. I have actually started enjoying Friday nights in watching a film or something. I went away for a weekend with a friend which would have been a wild night… We went to a museum, watched a film and had a picnic. It was tame but nice. Nice is good! Remembering everything is good!
I’m still not as confident sober but after using alcohol as a substitute for a personality for the last 15 years I guess that’s to be expected.
Yeah I’m seeing a therapist and psychiatrist. Unfortunately getting help doesn’t mean getting cured…
I hear you.
I have this annoying habit of trying to fix things…
I’m glad you staid sober and I hope you end up having a decent weekend