It kinda sucks getting addicted young. It feels so normalized by everyone like since everybody else is doing I should be fine right? But I guess I took it to far. Using made me feel numb and I was searching for an escape from daily stress and it gave me that. But I think I lost a part of myself to my addiction like the innocence I once had was gone. I grew up with an alcoholic parent and I swore I would never be like him and even though I am almost at 90 days resisting is so hard. I dont wanna be like him but I am afraid some days I might not be any better. Yesterday I had the hardest time fighting triggers of smoking because it was being offered to me. But I turned my head and said no even though my brain was saying yes so taking it day by day.
Take a second to be proud of yourself for resisting that temptation yesterday –that’s not a small thing! I don’t know what it’s like to walk in your shoes exactly, but from the outside I see you trying and succeeding in what your alcoholic parent could not: you’re working on your sobriety, even when it’s hard. Good for you. 
You are doing good
90 days is still fresh
Living day to day is like walking on a balence beam. Sometimes it can even suck. But you do it. And its hard but you do it
Balence takes adjustments
One day at a time, see what your made of and what happyness is for you. In the mean time. No matter what, dont pick up
The longer you dont pick up the more youll understand life and lifes terms
Keep posting always
More importantly keep reading info
The magnifing glass helps search words that have been used. You can use key words and find info you need. Garintee youll find something.
If you see things that seem harsh, just try to understand what they mean and take it or leave it 
thats up to you 100%
Me personally, i like tough love with sobriety. Helps keep people accountable and understanding what addiction does