Hey @Louise1,
When I was in my early to mid 30’s, I kind of suspected I had a problem with alcohol and I kind of wanted to quit, but I also kind of didn’t. So I bargained. I’d quit for a few weeks then drink. It seemed to be working, until I found myself bargaining even more, “ok, I’ll drink twice this week but not next”. The time between kept slipping shorter and shorter. Then, was drinking every day.
I remember thinking that whatever problem I had, wasn’t THAT bad. I mean, my peers all drank too, some much more, and they are all ok, so I am too? Maybe it wasn’t that bad, maybe it was, hard to tell, but I do know it got worse. It always does. (Eventually some of my peers started dying from alcohol related diseases).
So, here you are. 3 years after your last post. Because were here in 2019 and now you’re back, that tells me you don’t feel good about your relationship with alcohol, and I totally understand.
My advice is to really examine your relationship with alcohol. And then, if you need to, Change your Relationship with Alcohol
That is the turning point of my sobriety, changing my relationship with alcohol.
Welcomw back!