Hey welcome,
I like your honesty, you know. You know what alcohol does. You have awareness.
New romantic relationship, Bi-Polar, and Alcohol.
Yeah. You will get in your own way pretty easily.
I understand that to a degree.
I was never diagnosed, but, oh man, i assume I have it to some degree.
However, I wanted to add this. When you get off Alcohol and give it as long as it needs to, maybe the BPD isn’t as bad as once was.
I noticed, that, while Im still highly emotional, with bouts of depression and mania.
Those things where not as bad as when I was drinking. Remember even after the drinking and hangover is off, the chemicals are still at an imbalance.
Alcohol does indeed mess with it all.
There is a day one, then a day two, and so on.
Be curious about the changes leading forward. Let go of the drink, let your body repair. Talk about what it is.
This community can be of help.
Lashing out at loved ones. We all been there. Its not even on them, and in your story i think that resignates.
Something in you, is taking yourself down.
If you want to fix it, its up to you. I would say also, go check into an AA group, get connected. Listen, talk and find solace that the drinking days are over.
Wish you well.
BPD is no joke, Alcohol makes it wildly worse.
Those manic days, i have them sometimes, but not as bad as I did drinking. Thats one of the major things that got be sober.
Those deep im lost manic days or weeks. Then bam, im depressed for 3 weeks.
Just putting all that emotion and selfishness on another person as I attempted to weave through connections, and romantic relationships. Its brutal, for yourself and definitely on others.
Anyways..
See you on day 2.
