Hay ladies… hope u r all having a great day … i been on cloud 9 then after a meeting today i realized i go back to work again on Friday and the fear and anxiety hit me hard … ive just had 2 weeks off and think ive been in my safe bubble of family and aa … now i gotta go back to the real world… the lady i work with is a total bitch to me … she talks non stop about what wine do i drink recommend or drank in the past … even though ive said im in recovery… she doesn’t even drink herself but is just a horrible person… the thought of changing jobs also frighteneds me … i cant believe im getting in such a mess over a 2day a week job x
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Things like this can really play on your mind plus how can you complain of report her to someone becyshrs being very subtle in how she plays things knowing full well what she is doing. It’s cruel. But if you can beat drugs you can certainly handle her !
Just remember how far you’ve come and that you’re the better person here. I understand your fear of looking for other jobs also. I’ve been in the same job for almost 14 years. Also part time like you. I wanted to go full time. For my mental health I feel I need more involved in the real world. I had applied and been interviewed for few jobs which was terrifying as it has been soooooo long. As it happens a new full time job came up in the company I work for at the right time and I got it starting June. It IS scary but think of what you’ve dealt with! Anxiety can be crippling but stay strong xx
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Thats greatnews 4 u … it goes to show sometimes we need to be more patient and wait a bit until the time is right … i have no one in my work as its a small barber shop and only myself and her tbat works there she shags the boss ! Maybe i need this time of 2 days a week to do my recovery and get through my step work… hows things with you and your partner? Hope its getting better x
I haven’t really seen him Natalie to be honest thought he did call into my work today. I just needed space. He admitted he needed to sort out his drinking but I will believe it when I see it. I think he’s been hitting it hard. I’m going out for the day with him on Friday to the sea. But if he meets me stinking of drink and hungover from the night before I won’t be pleased because he won’t be fit for the day. It’s a bit of a test because I will know he’s not willing to compromise if he hasn’t respect to make the effort since he hasn’t seen me in ages. We will see. I know he needs support if he really is wanting to change but I need to put my sobriety first and I will. So time will tell. You’re doing great Natalie but yes 2 days a week gives you time to work on your recovery. So take that time and heal well. For me I need out and distraction. Keep strong x
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Cool! Whereabouts are you? Do you go to meetings or have any other support structures in place? X
Bless ya . Hope he realises hes gotta change for his own sake … at least your doing great and seem so much positive in your own journey… im afraid its gotta be all about us and our recovery for now … lol… its great to be selfish for once !!! X
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Morning UK ladies. Haven’t checked in on this post for some time. Hope everyone’s doing ok. Have a great day 
Good morning honey! How are you ? X
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Morning love I’m sad but ok. Just got to breathe through the emotions. How’s your withdrawals? I hope you’re doing ok x
Ah hun whats up ? Anything i can help with ? Im doing loads better thanks …spent alot of time yesterday in church and met a great lady in na who been through the same as me and now 8 years clean… gotta swollow a bit of my pride and realise my body aint quite ready to stop medication. Whats another few weeks on meds if it helps me stay clean ! X
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Exactly you have your priorities in place and can see the bigger picture. I’m ok nothing that can be changed. Just sad because of my break up x
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Have u heard from him x
Yeah he text me to say he was quitting drinking . I told him that I really hoped he meant that but he couldn’t do it to save our relationship. It had to be for himself. I don’t believe he will do it though I would love to be proved wrong so much. Haven’t heard from him since that. That was Saturday evening. I think it was just a ploy to get me to reconsider breaking up. It doesn’t help that his job is senior sales in an off license. I am hurting quite a bit today I will be glad to get back to work tomorrow
Sorry im not from the UK but wanted to tell you that I’m thinking of you. I know that doesn’t take away your sadness but I would like to give you a hug… You are strong!!! And you are brave to have left your partner to make some important changes in your life that eventually will save you!!!
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Great! Time is very important. And you have achieved so much already that you will succeed further. I believe in you
Thank you Julia and you’re welcome on this post. Anyone is I just created it really so people closer in time zones could communicate easier. And thanks for the hug x
Theres nothing worse then a broken heart … maybe in time he will get on the same recovery as u … i had to change 4 me and it gave my partner the kick up the arse once he see the change in me and that i wouldn’t put up with drugs in our lifes… x
I can only hope. He messaged my daughter about an hour ago to wish her luck with her GCSE tomorrow and told her he loved us both very much. I don’t even know what shifts he’s working this week but I’m guessing he’s on the drink and was feeling emotional. Anyway I can only work on me. Thanks for your support xx
Always here 4 u … i know how hard it is trying to do this on our own especially with our girls both doing exams !!! Hormones everywhere! X
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I know you’re not kidding ! Two weeks till I start full time work. Erin should be through the majority of her exams by then. Hope your daughter’s doing ok. Does she know what she wants to do after ? Erin has two conditional places. One for hairdressing and one for beauty. She’s not academically minded but those two things are her passions. She works in a hairdresser on a Thursday night to get a couple of quid x