so here I am 9 months into my recover, 12 years of alcohol ruling my life failed attempts at sobriety lost friends family jobs etc …and now I sit here after 9 monts of day rehab and counciling and I now feel strong enough to finally come out as asexual (greysexual) all through my early teen life i have been attracted to women and infact enjoyed clubbing dancing and pulling the odd women but never really had the urge to have sex even when it was on a plate …I’ve had 3 major relationships (ie over last 25 years) and in them always felt I had to have sex to please my partner i am and have been attracted to them fancy them and do get aroused but when it comes to sex i go numb …I’ve done so much soul searching over the years I thought i might be gay might be frigid scared of sex or that my past has scarred me I felt pressured by society to be this sex mad man …but these last 9 months i have done a lot of work on myself and explored this area and was pointed towards “asexual” writings … I’ve explored my sexual history my feelings towards women especially my ex who I class as my best friend and soul mate and who I love dearly and it’s me … I don’t feel any natural urges for sexual intercourse . I enjoy cuddling and kissing and seeing, well my ex at the time, been happy but felt nothing sexual myself I was happy cause she was happy and that was all that mattered it didn’t help she suffered with sex addiction …but he ho do i want to be labeled ?? no not really …am I happy that there are others put there the same as me ? hell yes …and why you ask am I writing this ? simple …if I a 45 yr old typical man’s man the geezer old skool chap can dig deep and do some research some soul searching and come out …then I hope it inspires others weather gay bi gender neatral whatever …let’s feel safe in who we are …thankyou for reading …regards pete
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I know you would have been holding your breath on this one, so glad you choose here to open up.
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