This has become less and less, but I see this strange attachment to intense hatred towards others and anger and need for judgement. How is it related to my low self esteem? Do I feed on the judgement to make myself feel better. My father was extremely angry and hateful all the time.
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Resentment and sharp strong negative emotions are a whole addiction all by themselves. They are powerful and highly focusing, like some kind of stimulant drug. It is awful the effect they can have: the same effect of stealing you away from your life and leaving you hollow.
I have been working on those gradually as I’ve worked my program with my sponsor. I find it is helpful to have some outside guidance.
There’s a lot of threads about resentment here. If you search “resentment” or other related terms, you will find many. Here’s the results for the search “resentment”:
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I don’t know how old you are but I think as people age most people come to realise that the world is different for each individual and are more accepting of others differences and less judgemental.
It’s good that you’ve recognised the negative trait in yourself, it could be rooted in insecurity and a desire to feel superior to others?? Therefore needing to put them down??? I don’t know, but it’s good that you’ve recognised it because now you can work on improving and the outcome is a better experience for yourself and everyone else too
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yeah it stems from my narcissistic traits. It is very telling of an alcoholic, but now i sit with it, feel sad that want to feel superior to others, coz thats just so crap to be wanting that. and have to work through this trait and need to do it, as sometimes, part of me just do not want to let go of wanting to feeling superior and have contempt.
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