18 months ago was off the booze for 10 weeks I made it for… blow out last night, damage caused… same old thing, time to try again…
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Just bummed out at myself for letting people down… again… got the glum internal horror of self loathing and depression thing, been here so many times… I’ve been to the shrink, taking the anti depressants and have been doing good, drinking though through the last year and a half, thought I had it under control mostly, had a few flair ups that weren’t TOO hurtful, and wrote them off, forgave myself, convinced myself I was doing better and I have been doing better, but the demon came out two nights ago… and I was foul… hideously disgusting… I’d smashed a litre of vodka in 3 hours… and just turned in to that guy. Loser is the word… f’ing loser. Pathetic.
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