So Friday after a 12 hour night shift i was pulled down into the office for “my back to work meeting” but instead I was told by my manager that she was ‘letting me go’!!! Needless to say I was fumming, especially when she did not give me a reason to why except bringing up the fact I have a new job (I git a new job few weeks back and told them as soon as my DBS and that had come through I would be handing in my notice, just to pre warn them and make them aware). So I’m thinking that’s the reason to why, to just be spiteful. I am taking this further with my union rep, but it was not the best of starts to my weekend which I was dreading any way.
Me and my bf came to cumbria visiting family yesterday(it’s his birthday weekend) after a long day of me crying and been angry and really wanting to just down a pack of beers. But I managed it I got and early night and said no to his dad (who doesn’t know I’m an addict) who offered me a beer. I was so proud of myself. Inside I wanted to just take that can and think bugger it I need this but I never, I was strong.
Today my bfs dad and his wife has planned for us to go to a pub to watch my bfs old band and I am scared, I’m not even a week sober yet and I don’t think I can cope in that environment. But I don’t want to say no. This weekend is going from bad to worse with no way out. Hopefully I come out of this weekend with a sense of achievement rather than having to start over.
Hope it will turn out ok about this jobsituasion @Nicolle stay strong a belive in your self. Think positive, seems like your bf is a good support for you . If you are not ready to go to the pub u should not do it. I wont recomend it if you only been sober for a week. I think you will learn something from this. You can choose to tell them about your addiction or not. IT is all up to you . Stand up for your self . I hope your weekend will turn out great . Fingers a re crossed for you
I read a piece yesterday that stated “Your sobriety is more important than saving face”.
I’ve done it! I went out and stayed away from alcohol, harder than it sounds! and my anxiety was sky high! but I went out and sat there with a soda water and orange while everyone else drank their beer and cider. I stayed out for a hole hour and half and then I had to call it a night and my bf drove me home. He told me how proud he was and I couldn’t be happier. Now I need sleep my anxiety sucks and is so draining but I’d rather feel like this and be sober then drinking and masking everything. Thank you guys for the support 
@Robin @Cobaltchris
Thats very good News. U done it the right way . So Proud of you . Your boyfriend got a Great woman that Stood against it . Keep that up. Go to sleep.tomorrow will u smile bigtime 
@Nicolle,
You took a chance. But you came through. You should count this as a victory. I think putting yourself in this environment this early is dangerous. But be proud you came through this. Now you know you can. You don’t have to be a slave to alcohol anymore.