Being addicted to Porn and Masturbation for a long time

Welcome to my world. I’m an hour and a half from completing day one again. I decided to try and change a few things up and see if it helps, but damn, I’m struggling. I’m tired and frustrated and stressed out from my job search, and of course I’m at home alone almost every day. Hours of time to yourself is a bad, bad thing for an addict.

I need to find the way out of this for me. I’m working hard, but seem to be spinning my wheels a bit. I think once I get a job it will be a bit easier, if for no other reason than I’ll have something else on which to focus, and I’ll have to be around people more.

Wow, this just turned into a much longer “confessional” piece than I planned on. Guess I needed some ventilation.

Have a similar addiction. During the day I can keep busy at least but at night, doing nothing, makes it super hard. Been trying to learn which nights to take melatonin on to avoid it, but it’s pretty hit or miss so far.

What does the melatonin do? Other than make you sleepy?

I think the worst thing for me is it really hurts real sex with my partner. true intimacy is hard to come by when I’m watching abnormal fantasies. . I find myself wAtching morehardcorw things just to get off. best of luck my friend.

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Exactly that. My brain will keep me awake and idle past one in the morning if it has its way, and that brings me closer to giving in to the addiction. So sleeping through that is good.

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I wanted to share some joy that has just happened. I work at a 24/7 heavy truck shop as a foreman. My schedule for the past 7 years has been 3 on 3 off. Which has given me a LOT of free time. Which allows me to relapse. I have been looking for a new job something that is M-F and will not afford me alone time if you know what I mean. The company I work for has offered me a M-F job as a warranty manager. I will miss the time with my kids on my days off but I know in the long run this is going to help me tremendously with my addiction.

Awesome! And frankly, you’ll be better for your kids if you’re free from this. Quality of time and life is important! And congrats on your new job!

Thanks! I start Monday the 30th a whole new skill set to learn which is nice. I hope everyone has a great week

I am a sex addict as well. SAA is a great place to go. I go to four meetings a week and it helps. I am 37 days and have not acted out.
Stay strong.
Norton

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I been using porn for the past 4 years just to relieve my anxiety and loneliness inside. It all started when I was 12 or 13 I don’t remember but my classmates keep talking about this pornstar who I eventually searched and didn’t know what to do. Then I got addicted weeks later. There are so many promises I’ve broken by this addiction. I really am trying but it seems impossible sometimes. But I know there’s Hope out there and if they say it’s possible I believe it truly is. Thank you for listening

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I to am struggling with porn and masturbation. I feel so guilty when I masturbate it’s usually 2 times a day, I also feel unattractive. It started when I was thirteen watching porn and the feeling of the first time. Now I am 30 wanting to stop! So it is day 3 going on 4 and the urge is building but I’m fighting!

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Welcome my friend. I am struggling against the same addiction. Day 5 sober. All my support and prayers. Thanks for your honesty. I am always embarrassed to say I am addicted to that and that I want to stop

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Keep fighting! Do you know what is causing the urges? What feelings lie beneath the surface?
Do you have any program in place? A plan of action for when you feel an urge?
This is a great place to find support and wisdom from others on their journey beyond this addiction. I wish you well

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Probably hormones…

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I almost relapse because of an picture I had in my phone, but I was so close and I felt all the days that I had put no flap and j imediately stop so I didn’t have to reset!

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Id advise you to clean everything up. Delete/trash any triggering material you own. Unsubscribe from any sites that trigger you. Change your routines and learn the pattern of the addiction.

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I have a same problem thanks for you

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Welcome @Ahmed! Glad to have you here. Looking forward to watching your progress! There’s a handful of us here, reach out if you need assistance!

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Welcome to the forum. There are quite a few of us on here, but ive found that ive been able to relate to all addicts. Addiction is psychological after all. Stick around and share your story with us.

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I’m appreciate this , but i dont know from where should i start , every day i make decision to stop watching porn but at night i slip again and again. I really need a help to stop

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