You have support. You are here. Find a meeting. Go to it. Those around you may not support you. They may even try to sabotage you. You can’t control that. You can only control you.
This isn’t about anyone else. This is about you. This is working to make up for “Past Sins” to use a religious word. You aren’t making it up to anyone other than yourself.
I quit a hundred times. I told everyone I was quitting…and serious this time…and I’d fall off. No one believed me anymore. So when I for real quit, I didn’t say anything. I was embarrassed because I had talked, but not delivered.
This is about you. You do it for you. No one else. We dug this hole for ourselves, we have to work out of it.