My best friend lives in Arizona, used to live in CT where I am, and I moved down there in 2011 before either of us were addicted to anything, had the best time of my life, but I had to move back because I couldn’t find work. He started with Vicodin, moved to oxycodone (prescribed due to MRSA) then moved up to fetynal off the street in the form of fake oxycodone 30s, I’m afraid he is going to die one of these days, or weeks, he just won’t stop and it’s frustrating to me. It’s not triggering by any means because I don’t see him do it, but I know when he is high, because if been high more than my fair share of times…just venting I guess. 86 days sober from oxycodone for me
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I’m sorry, you know though… If he’s not ready, you can’t help. I know that’s a sucky answer but at least your clean to help when he IS ready…
I can’t believe what a bullet I dodged. I stopped at Hydrocodone, I was taking at least 20, 10mg a day it seems the natural progression to oxy, then heroin, to fentynol is some kind of awful.
I will keep you and your friend in my thoughts.
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@KeepGoing unfortunately with fentanyl there is a very good chance he could die. I can’t count the number of times we have had to narcan people at my job. He won’t quit until he is ready though. You could try an intervention but it really is about having the right mindset. I suggest you get a narcan kit if they are available where you are. I know in Canada you can get them for free from a pharmacy.
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I am 2200 miles away from him, he has narcan on hand, he’s a prepared addict (no such thing) and I told him I’m not gonna stick around to see him die, I know he could die, especially the way he is getting the fetynal. I thank God I stopped at oxycodone after hydrocodone, and never did heroin, not once (not that the aforementioned drugs are any different)
Yes i know, i told him I can’t stick around to see him kill himself, I feel like a hypocrite, but I did make the effort to quit, and now I’m standing strong at 86 days
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And keep standing strong! It is an uphill battle but worth every step!
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As bad as this sounds sometimes we have to step over some bodies to reach our own recovery. I’ve buried some friends as a result of this disease. I hate it every time, but I can’t have guilt over it. They would want me to stay clean so I will. Just like if I went back out and died I would hope that someone can be helped by my story.
If you have your friends email maybe invite him to this forum. And keep living a good life and show him recovery works.
Stay strong my friend.
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Thank you, I have invited him, and a few other friends to this forum, none of them were serious about quitting so they never joined, but my best friend is different, I’ve known him for over a decade, but I am willing to not talk to him so he can realize that he’s choosing that over a decade of friendship, and if he never comes back around, I’ll get over it in time, but it just sucks…man it just fuckin sucks.
I would feel bad if he did die from this, it’s scary, as bad as this is for me to say as well I wish he would just go back to oxycodone over a street pill that has who knows what dose of fetynal in it, he knows it’s fetynal because he was getting tested for opiates when he would get his oxycodone refill from the surgery he had … just a shitty situation
I hate that feeling.
On one hand, you do not want someone to feel like you are trying to run their life and on the other, you are like, this Fucker is going to die.
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I feel you on this far to well/know personally where you are coming from.
Big trigger but I am staying strong.
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Your friend has a terminal illness, one that you have too. You have taken the steps to put yourself in remission. He has not. Prayer and encouragement are the only tools you have, so use them. However, you need to prepare yourself for the eventuality of where his chosen path likely leads. Tough to watch a friend slowly slide to the edge, but you are working to make sure you don’t slide as well. Can’t be a life-guard when you yourself are learning to swim.
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I’m sorry if this triggered you, I know it’s a touchy topic, but I had to get it off my chest
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Very wise words, I agree
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Do not be sorry.
I understand and know where you are coming from.
How are you holding up today?
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I’ll hit 87 days tonight at 8pm, how are you doing today? 
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