Well, this is certainly a place I never thought I’d be in but alas, I’ve hit my rock bottom and here I am. I’ve been reading your posts over the past 24 hours and I feel safe sharing with you.
I’ve always been a binge drinker, it’s simply hard to stop once the 2nd or 3rd drink is in my system. I started blacking out after binge drinking and at first thought it was funny. It wasn’t until I started acting like a terrible version of myself while blacked out that I realized it wasn’t healthy. I rarely have more than 2-3 beers/drinks a week normally. But then when going to parties or events, I go all out and hard.
Several years ago, I started getting violent/angry when blacked out and would fight with whoever I was dating at the time. I’m now in a relationship with a man that I hope to marry someday and he has had to deal with blacked out me several times. The most recent time was a day ago, after we had left a Halloween party. We took an über there & back but when we got home I was determined to get pizza. I got in my car and he tried to stop me. I don’t remember what happened but he has bruises all over and his nipple is scabbed/bleeding. I feel like a monster.
He’s not speaking to me and I am so afraid of losing him. I’ve decided that drinking is not worth messing things up so I’m done.
It’s going to be hard, I know this. His grandfather, who passed away earlier this year and who was his most favorite person in the world, gave up drinking for his grandmother so I’m going to try and be strong like he was and become a better version of myself.
I want to thank each of you for the support and for sharing your struggles and successes with the community. We got this!
Yes! You can do it. I stopped a month ago, one of the main reasons was my relationship had ended. We were only seeing each other a couple of months and in that time I had blacked out 3 times. The first Time I met his 8year old daughter I snatched her iPad out of her hand and yelled at her to go to bed which I don’t remember. Can’t actually believe I didn’t get dumped at the time for that one! But anyway it all added up and we broke up. I had no real hope that he would take me back, but I quit for myself, my son and any future relationships which I did hope would be him. So it’s been a month and yesterday we saw each other for the first time, went to a movie and dinner, no booze and it was great. All the best, quit for him but make the number one reason yourself if you can.
Hi. Just wanted to say, I’m a binge drinker also. I didn’t used to be but somehow I ended up here. I have 3 or 4 drinks and I black out and lose count. I have haf a couple of personal accidents in the past year due to this. I fell down the front porch steps and broke my ankle 2 yrs ago at Christmas. Then this past summer i fell in the kitchen and gashed my forehead and ended up with a concussion. I hit rock bottom a couple weeks ago, woke up one morning feeling like shit, could not remember anthing about the previous evening. After looking in the fridge i realized i jad cooked dinner but not eaten it, and i said WHY. Made an appt. With my doctor and confessed everything. She gave me a prescription for Naltrexone, it is supposed to help with cravings. I am using what is called the Sinclair method. An hou before you think you might drink, you take a pill. Basically the drug takes away the kick thst alcohol gives you, so you stop craving it, because it is no longer satisfying. I think it might be helping me as i am now on DAY 6. I have tried very hard to be good, the “witch” still calls my name around 4 or 5 in the afternoon, but as long as i take my pill, i’m Ok. One day i tried to drink some, but it tasted bad and smelled bad, and I couldn’t finish it. You might want to check it out, go and Google the Sinclair method and Naltrexone. Good luck to you, and wish me luck too, six days is good, I have to keep going. I have to.
Six days is fantastic! Great work! I’ve also broken bones and woken up with bad bruises after a night of drinking. It’s amazing how quickly alcohol makes you forget past mistakes. It’s one of the worst drugs available and really the only socially acceptable one to use regularly. Pretty crazy. Hang in there and be proud of yourself!
You are not alone.Not even a little bit.
& it is possible to give up drinking mainly because you are tired of not being in control but also because you don’t want to hurt people you care about.
Alot of my exs will probably say I’m a crazy drunk who blacks out and is a mess.Which is true, when I drink.Thats not who I am most of the time, especially when I’m sober. My husband dealt with my binge drinking for years. I finally couldn’t take disappointing and hurting him anymore and I’m 78 days sober today.
Maybe he can’t relate but there are people who can.We are here for you.We get It. It starts with wanting it.
I have had many blackouts but the most messed up one, which i only know about is because my wife videoed me, was me sitting at the table having a conversation with a line up of bottles. Then i fell out of the chair, hit my head and then passed out for a few hours. From what I hear from my wife is when I blackout I go into a psychosis state. I have conversations with inanimate objects and conversions with things not there. Talk about death and murder. Alcohol would destroy me and I am so thankful to be 27 days sober and out of that mental state that controlled my world for so long.