831 sugar
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135 days smoke free
9 days binge free
I am happy that I donât have a big struggle with not binging this time. But I still do experience emotional eating. I donât have to fix it today, because I just donât have the capacity today. I need some self care and some rest today. The weekend was busy.
Have a peaceful day, everyone! 
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Day 1924 : No binge today. 
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Hello @Butterflymoonwoman
How are you doing lately? Is all good?
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Well done, @DanielaJ 
Sending hugs 
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I had 3 weeks no binge yesterday, which is very nice 
Just one more week and I am back month no binge 
Trigger warning - food descriptions
I think that I am not eating enough today because I constantly feel hungry. I was busy over the lunch time so I had only beetroot and banana mixed shake which obviously wasnât enough because now I am still thinking what else to eat. I already had an apple and some oat biscuits, maybe Iâll have pistachios. They usually help me to feel full. Later we are planning pizza for dinner so at least I had something beforehand and wonât feel like eating the whole pizza by myself haha 
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Day 1 and 19 hours
Since yesterday I have actually been doing alot better. I havent binged or engaged in disordered eating. Ive been tracking my foods again to make sure I dont overeat (since I struggle with gauging how much I really need to eat) and have been exercising the past 2 days as well. It feels really good. I did well last night with ending my eating at 7pm. And bcuz I stopped eating a few hours before bed at 10pm, i had a better sleep! I am still sort of trying to figure out the 6 meals a day technique but figured if I incorporate more little meals more often, I should be able to get at least 5 âmealsâ in. I completed my fast at 9am when I had a coffee in the morning (which I dont know if that counts as a âmealâ) lol. But then I ate lunch at about 1pm (I was exercising and running errands before that), then a small snack at 230pm or so, another small snack at 430pm, and supper at 6pm. So im done eating for the day. I dont feel hungry which is good. But im still working thru the thoughts of wanting to snack late at night. I know that itll take time bcuz its an engrained habit. I do like having a better sleep tho which seems to occur when I stop eating a few hours before bed.
Im really putting in the effort right now. But i know its the consistency piece that I struggle with. When times get tough or my routine is off, i struggle. I need to be more flexible and realize that life happens and that I have to work with life, rather then throw my healthy lifestyle out the window bcuz Im stressed, emotional, bored, or thinking in terms of âblack and whiteâ.
My son has spring break coming up (March 20-29) and that will be a test for me in terms of keeping up with my new healthy lifestyle. Going to take it 1 day at a time.
@Jana1988 Thank u sooo much Jana for checking in on me 
Truly appreciate it!
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Huge congratulations on ur 3 weeks yesterday! That 1 month mark is approaching fast! Extremely proud of you!
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Day 1925 : No binge today.
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Hello @Butterflymoonwoman 
Thank you for your congratulations. I got here one step at time. I am doing it day by day, not overthinking it. Although I am at a place where I feel quite confident that if I continue doing what I am doing, I wonât binge again. Yesterday is my proof (read below if you want 
).
Congratulations on getting more food to your eating window. I used to do what you are doing - exercise on empty stomach and then tried to eat clean. I couldnât exercise lately because I was ill, but I want to start exercising again soon because I am missing it. For me it means adding even more food to my diet because I donât want to under eat. I believe there are health benefits for exercising on empty stomach, although my reason was acid reflux. If I ran after I ate, Iâd suffer. But I am going to learn what food I can have without having issues like that because for me is very important now to eat enough. Itâs my absolute priority because otherwise I am likely to binge.
I believed that binging had to do something with bad habits and mood. But eating enough during the day for now over 2 months proved me otherwise. You and me, weâre different, so maybe it doesnât apply to you, but I see so many similarities in our behaviour and what lead to binge when you are describing it. I learnt that it is all just my behaviour and false beliefs which I was telling to myself over and over until I made them my facts. I can now see how many things I was telling myself which arenât true. I am now very careful with my thoughts because sometimes I am still telling myself things which are not true 
But itâs ok as long as I notice it and correct it in my head.
I wish you the best of luck 
I hope you will be able to figure it out for yourself what is the best for you and what works for you so you donât have to suffer anymore. You deserve the best
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Good morning, I 'd like to share my yesterday âstoryâ.
I went shopping and they finally had my favourite chocolates in there. Plus I like different chocolates from the store next door. I was indecisive which to get so I ended up buying both. I must admit that it felt like the âold daysâ when walking the aisle to the tills. Like the old days when I was buying too much and when I knew that I am going to binge. I had that fear in me, yet I bought them both and brought them home. Now, the thing is that I had too much to do at work and so I didnât have a proper lunch yesterday. I could feel it all the afternoon because I was kinda snacky. Normally I have lunch, snack 3 hours later and then dinner 2 hours after the snack. This time, I already had like 3 different snacks since lunch and ended up eating one of the chocolates I brought home. To be fair, I felt in piece with it because it at least finally satisfied me. Later I had soup and pizza for my dinner. I was thinking about skipping the soup as I felt a little bit guilty about the chocolate I ate earlier and I knew thereâs another one in the cupboard waiting for me. But then I realised that I am trying to restrict based on my behaviour which is old way of thinking and doing. And so I had the soup as well as my half of the pizza. And then something happened what would never happen before. I was happy, I was the right amount of full (maybe a bit over, but really only teeny tiny bit) and so I didnât eat the other chocolate! Ed did reminded me of the chocolate a few times, but it felt more like a little pokes, rather then the uncontrollable cravings which would make me bite my nails off. So I had only a cup of tea and went to bed later. My boyfriend was actually munching on his chocolate right next to me and I was totally ok with it! Itâs so so important for me to eat enough because that makes my nights so relaxing.
I used to be like you, @Butterflymoonwoman when evenings were my nightmare. In fact, I only binged in evenings. I couldnât control it, I felt powerless and when I managed not to binge I had to use a lots of willpower. So I canât stress how important it is to eat enough during the day.
Today, I feel really good (in mood plus physically), despite snacking a bit more than Iâd like to and having some food Iâd classify âunhealthyâ. I maybe FELT that I ate too much, but the REALITY is that I had just the right amount of calories for the day. I am happy about it all.
Have a wonderful Wednesday everyone
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137 days smoke free
11 days binge free
Fighting a cold. Feeling tired, sick, everything hurts. This will pass and all I can do now is take some meds, have some ginger tea and fresh lemon juice and let my body rest.
Have a peaceful day/evening everyone
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Awr friend⌠im so sorry ur feeling so unwell 
Im so proud of you for ur 11 days binge free tho (and of course ur 137 days smoke free)! Hope u get better soon! 
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Day 2
So yesterday I stopped eating after supper, which was 630pm. By the time 10pm rolled around I was hungry. But I was already in bed and so did my best to just fall asleep (which was difficult bcuz i was beginning to feel sick). Anyway, at midnight, when i had to get up to give my son his antibiotics, I ended up eating bcuz I was just too hungry. I ate a banana and a single yogurt cup. I didnt binge even tho there were those thoughts of eating whatever i could get my hands on lol. I honestly felt that it was important for me to listen to my body tho. Normally, I would say that eating at midnight is a no-no but I actually am kind of proud of myself for, first of all⌠listening to my body. And 2nd of all⌠eating something healthy and not eating too much. I didnt feel out of control. I just needed something in my stomach so that i could sleep.
This morning i woke up and i did eat a single yogurt cup with flax seed and protein granola. I knew that i wouldnt be home until like 2pm so figured I should eat something. Im trying to listen to myself and plan ahead 
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WOW!!! Love ur story!!! Im learning so much from you honestly. I loved the part about u realizing that ur were going to restrict based on ur behaviour, but then chose a healthier path. I just love how self-aware u are! Great work Jana!! Your current actions speak loudly of the self-love u have for urself. Respecting and nourishing ur body 
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I made it through a tough day without binging or overeating. I reached out for support and guess where I found it? Here on TS, of course. I am so grateful for all of you.
I had urges to use food to comfort myself today, because I am lying down with a heavy cold and I feel like crap. But it will pass and I am so glad I was able to decide to not overeat.
Iâve had enough meals for today, so I donât need to think about food for the rest of the night. This clarity will be helpful.
Now Iâm watching some low brainer show and just kill time.
Have a peaceful day, everyone
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Congratulations on another successful day! Im so proud of you Daniela! Hoping u feel a bit better tmrw and things will be easier for u 
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Iâm sure I will feel better every day. Thank you for supporting me, that means SO much!
I loved to read that you fueled your body with a power breakfast. I know itâs hard to eat in the morning when youâre not used to it. You made a healthy and reasonable choice. I am proud of you.
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Sorry to hear youâre ill, @DanielaJ I hope you get better soon
Well done for sticking to your path and being here with us 
You are doing very well
Thank you, @Butterflymoonwoman for your nice and kind words I have been dealing with this Ed 
for way too many years. Itâs time to be as honest as I can with myself and donât let Ed manipulate me anymore. You know, the worst habit I developed is fear from eating. But I realised thatâs what I have. So any time I am overthinking food in my head (the âshould I or should I not eat thisâ kind of debate) I know it is my fear to eat, and that comes from fear to gain weight. Then I must remember that I ate more for a few months now and didnât gain weight, hence the fear is a nonsense. That helps me to have food even when the old way of thinking tries to get in my way and sabotage my efforts. Itâs not always easy, and it definitely wasnât easy at the beginning when Ed was screaming at me âWhat are you doing? Donât eat that! You will be fat!â How pathetic when he would let me eat tones of sweets at the end of the day. It is becoming interesting and almost exciting to experiment and see results. Eating well every day makes me stronger every day. Every success makes me stronger. For once again I feel like I am building a good base for me to become freedom for once and forever 
It was also good for me to realise that there are more important things in life than my weight and shape. If I lost my job, my partner, someone from my family, or my house for example, I donât think Iâd care how I look like. That helps me to realise the real priorities. I thought that weight and shape are the most important things and so I spent almost all the time of my day caring about it. Itâs becoming much simple getting into the habit of having regular meals and then I donât have to think about food all the time anymore and have more time for the really important things instead 
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