Thank you, @Aleyadaisey 
Iām sure I will!
Day one no binge , I literally had no time for it yesterday 
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507 sugar
371 UPF
245 gluten/dairy
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Day 1581 : No binge today. 
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508 sugar
372 UPF
246 gluten/dairy
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Thank you for sharing this! Itās always good to share happiness, we spend so much time on here sharing misery. And a good reminder that even people with loving and supportive folks around them can have immense internal struggles. Maybe a change of scenery will enable a change in habits. I hope you are able to relax and get some quality time in with your family 
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I do try to not share personal details. But I am a land manager for a public parks system.
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@Jana1988 enjoy your time with your family 
10 days no crisps.
2 days no binge-eating.
0 days no takeaways, no sugar.
It would have been 1 day no takeaways, except I had leftovers that saw me through yesterday so I reset that counter when Iād finished them. Today would also have been 9 months since I had an ice cream from the ice cream van (I wasnāt aware of this āmilestoneā until I came to reset the counter) but I had one yesterday. I donāt know what possessed me, I just think Iām too depessed to care at the moment. I was asleep, the ice cream van woke me up, and before I knew it I was out there, he still remembered my order which was embarassing, then I was in the kitchen eating it.
When I had the takeaway on Friday night, I ordered something other than what Iāve been recently addicted to, and I couldnāt eat more than a regular portion, so as far as Iām concerned I havenāt binged since Thursday very late evening. This feels quite good. I am also pleased that I was not able to continue eating even when I planned/wanted to. Perhaps the Mounjaro is starting to work.
Starting from Monday I will be on the first dose increase from 2.5mg to 5mg, so Iām hoping to see some improvement.
My blood glucose has still been way too high, but not quite as bad as it was, so this is hopeful. The lipid clinic wrote back to the doctor to say they donāt need to see me bc itās clear that my extremely high cholesterol and triglycerides are due to my unmanaged diabetes. They did prescribe a new med that specifically targets triglycerides, but when I went to collect them, the pharmacy only had 2 pills, they said the rest would be ready to collect the next day, but before I drove there I called them to check, and they said the med is actually out of stock with the supplier and they havenāt got a date for when it will become available again, so they said the doctors would need to prescribe an alternative med. I called the surgery to advise them and reception said to leave it with them, and this was only at 3pm on Friday so no update yet. As far as I can see online, there is only one other fibrate medication, so hopefully they can prescribe that.
I have a full 2-3 weeks without any of my therapy sessions. Breaks always seem to fall at a bad time. It is the anniversary of my Mumās death on the 17th April, and even though itās been 29 years, I always struggle around this time.
The pre-occupation of the addiction seems to have dissipated since I last had that specific thing on Thursday lunchtime. There must be something about it that fires up my brain more than any other takeaway in general. I have also caught-up on some much needed sleep this weekend, and right now, my mind is much calmer, and I feel different, peaceful.
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Day 1582 : No binge today.
Iām so sorry for your loss of your mom, @CATMANCAM. 
Iām glad your new medication is starting to work for you, I hope you can get your triglyceride medicine back in stock soon.
And also congratulations on 2 days no binge eating, and 10 days no chips! Keep it up! 
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Hi @CATMANCAM
I am sorry that your mumās not here with us anymore 
Iāll think of you on the day
Glad to see youāre getting on well with the crisps and binges. Remember that every success (even if it feels small) is an additional good day in your life which is giving you the chance to live longer and the life you dream about as a person you want to be. Every step towards sobriety in food is bringing you closer to your goals which are not easy to achieve for us, but we can do it, step by step - day by day
Sending my support and love 
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Good morning, somehow I have 3 days without binge. I was pretty preoccupied spending time with my family over the weekend, mainly with my brother and nephew, that I didnāt have time to eat really and in the evening I had some dinner and that made me satisfied enough. Plus my mum doesnāt keep sweets in the house at all, so even when I was craving a little bit of chocolate yesterday there was no way to get it and I had to accept it and go to bed without having it, which was really helpful because I definitely didnāt need it.
Iām also far away from spending as much energy as I would do in the UK with my (maybe over) exercising, so smaller amounts of food feel enough. This is like 5th time when I realised that itās much easier to stay on track for me when I donāt exercise. So Iām not sure anymore that exercising is so good for me 
Shame I love it haha. I will have to bring some balance to it and do less of it I guess.
But I donāt want to think about that now. I want to think about how happy Iām to be here, although I am working and that sucks a bit In the same time itās blessing because itās allowing me to stay here for much longer that I otherwise could
BTW, I had a strange dream tonightā¦ That I was somewhere with someone else and I was eating some chocolate bar with tears in my eyes and telling that person that I donāt want to eat the chocolate but yet Iām eating it and that itās such addiction. And I was opening another chocolate bar to eat when the person took it away from me and made me realise that I donāt have to eat it. After 5minutes or so my cravings were gone and I was thinking for myself that I donāt have to eat anything I donāt want to even if I think that I wanted it.
I know that what I dreamt about is true but sometimes difficult to feel in the way I felt it in the dream when in the middle of craving. But it was a nice reminder, showing me what I kinda realised yesterday when I couldnāt have the chocolate because there was no available to me 
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509 sugar
373 UPF
247 gluten/dairy
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Day 1583 : No binge today.
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510 sugar
374 UPF
248 gluten/dairy
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Day 1584 : No binge today.
Wowee, great job on over 500 days without sugar, @acromouse! Your efforts are paying off Iād say! Keep up the good work! 
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511 sugar
375 UPF
249 gluten/dairy
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The days without sugar are just awesome! 
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I made the beginnerās mistake of stress eating yesterday. I sat down and ate two chocolates like if they were my last for life. It was due getting some work to do from my manager about which I believe Iām not good at (Iām working on changing this belief btw). It really stressed me out for the entire rest of the day and also this morning. I was very anxious and I didnāt know what to do and so I ate the chocolates.
I donāt know if it was binge, maybe? What else would it be haha.
Later we went for pizza with my parents and I ate only reasonable amount which surprised me, because normally I just eat it all and after I soon realised that the type I ordered gives me IBS I didnāt even have it for lunch today as I planned. I also manage to ignore my cravings for something sweet before I went to bed and that despite my mum was very gently nagging me to have some (either she just wanted to be generous when I am here visiting, or maybe she also wanted some but didnāt want to eat it alone haha). Whatever the real reason, I found it unnecessary as Iād just eat it, brush my teeth and go to bed. No point.
So I feel like I made 1 mistake, but 2 good choices and that makes me feel very nice
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Day 1585 : No binge today.
Good job on your recovery win, @Jana1988!
Yeah, eating those 2 chocolates like itās your last time youāll ever have them is known in the ed recovery community as the ālast supper mentalityā. The best way to fight/challenge it is to say to yourself: āThis (insert food here) isnāt going anywhere. I donāt have to eat it at this very moment.ā 
And do some deep breathing or meditation to help relax you a bit.
Of course, as I have mentioned before : You do still need to eat, just try to focus on whole foods and eating enough.
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Good on you for identifying the stressors! Hopefully you are getting some feeling of what eating a reasonable amount feels like (and how it doesnāt feel as terrible afterwards) keep it up!
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I reset for today after 6 days. Iām realizing that binge is maybe not the most accurate word to describe my disordered eating, but the patterns and feelings and tools are similar, so Iāll just stick to it for simplicity.
Iām in the US and Iāve been doing so much stress eating since they started firing people and upending the constitution and civil rights. I work on environmental issues and am generally progressive and every day I think it canāt get worse and it does. Last week I lost my main cheerleader for a grant that I worked so hard on, but the agency doesnāt have the capacity to do much right now except tread water. Never knowing what is next is really taking a toll on me including getting enough sleep and taking care of myself.
Today I started off ok but I packed way too many snacky things cuz I forgot I was only working the morning and taking the afternoon off. But I still ate everything I packed and then ate more when I got home and just now ate even more 
i did at least resist the temptation to get junk at the gas station, and all of the food I ate was from my house, so itās usually not a huge trigger. Doesnāt help that I had 2 doctor appointments back to back that left me feeling pretty hopeless.
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