Day 1637 : No binge today. 
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564 sugar
428 UPF
302 gluten/dairy
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Has your doctor told you that you need to keep calories under 1500 and to not drink too much liquid? Restriction often just leads right back to binging. And I know myself how much I try to hide my disordered eating behind āhealthyā eating.
I went to a BBQ restaurant today. It was a large group of people, so they were slow bringing stuff and lots of sharing, so I didnāt overeat there. After that I decided to meander home slowly, looking in some second hand shops and as I had told my husband I would be home late and to feed himself and the kids by himself, I ate a quick snack from the convenience store. Then when I got back there was some leftovers from the kids which I did not really want, but ate anyway, so that was less than ideal. I also didnāt exercise this week; just had lots of work, then had some kidsā stress and then the time of the month. But I donāt want poor habits to get established, so back to the gym tomorrow afternoon, and going to make a big chicken and veggie curry that I can eat as much as I like because that is nourishing food.
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Iāve responded privately 
But for your check in.
Out to a BBQ restaurant with a group sounds very nice! Iām sure with all the conversation and sharing, it made for some happy memories. Even the meandering home slowly sounds peaceful, especially being able to stop in thrift stores! I love those! Iām happy you had some time to decompress at the end of a long and stressful week!
Chicken and veggie curry does sound like a great meal!
Iāve come to realize that a trip to the convenience store to get a snack or having the leftovers you maybe didnāt āneedā when youāre generally living a healthy lifestyle, wonāt hurt.
Much love to you hun 
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No added sugar 3 days.. sweets are losing their appeal
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Day 1638 : No binge today.
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I reseted my counter from today on, because I had a mini binge yesterday. To be honest, I can see clearly why it happened and I know that I am back on track today.
The thing is that I had a big bike ride yesterday during which I burnt enormous amount of calories. I am used to this so I always make sure I eat enough afterwards. But yesterday I came back and found out that I locked myself out of the house! My partner was in but he was sleeping and there was no way to wake him up. I tried to call him, rang the bell for at least 20mins but nope. Fortunately my friend was around so I crushed at his place until I could finally go home. But it meant no food for a few hours and I was starving! Once I got home I needed to have a shower first, etc. which postponed my food even further and then I ate in front of the TV. To be fair, I binged on vegetables with humus, then I had a full pack of pistachios and then probably about 5 oat biscuits. So really, it was more the mindset than a real binge. The oat biscuits are almost gone, I didnāt even craved them anymore until yesterday. I wish theyāre gone, I was so bloated in the morning after themā¦
Anyway, I 100% didnāt eat my calories yesterday so had a lovely big breakfast today and nice lunch, fruit as snacks through the day and now I will have a fish with rice and asparagus. All is good No sweet tooth at all! 
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I definitely count those as a mini binge too. Which is still better than going all in! But to me it is the same mindset. I have a grey area between general overeating and bingeing, both of which are issues for me.
I love fruit, it tastes so good when you reduce added sugar. 
Especially apples.
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I reset yesterday. I havenāt checked in in a while. Iāve been trying to stay off my phone so I donāt get sucked into an anger spiral by reading the latest news in the US.
My partner and I havenāt been getting along well lately. He has been pointing out certain things that I do and criticizing them, sometimes it is constructive but usually it is not. I am worried that he is starting to gaslight me. I did start journaling about it so I have record of it.
So then I started telling him why I donāt like certain things he does or says to me, and he is terrible at expressing his own feelings, so then I just end up feeling worse; then add a binge on top of that. I tried explaining addiction and self sabotage but I donāt think he can relate. We talked about couples therapy long time ago but havenāt ever done it.
I am so grateful for this gardening season, I have been spending every evening and weekend doing things and it really is my ultimate activity for inner peace. We moved in just a year ago and I am getting lots of compliments on the front beds which feels good because it took SO much work! I like working out front because I get to chat with neighbors, everyone has a dog and they walk them by.
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Day 1639 : No binge today.
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I am sorry to hear about your issues with your partner. It must be hard when he does that (criticism). Itās better when you support each other, criticism can be also helpful but depends in which way is servedā¦
But at least you have your gardening and itās obviously your way to relax. Maybe you could share some photos with us? Iād love to see the work you have done
Wishing you all the best 
Keep going, you can
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Thank you. Obviously most posts involve complaining, cause I canāt do that to his face. The other 99% of the time everything is great. But sometimes his stoicism and general acceptance of everything (which are things I love about him) just feels like dismissal.
I know part of it is that I donāt take criticism well. Unfortunately my only reaction to it or to discussing any type of deep issue is to cry. I donāt know why this behavior developed, but itās always been like this.
Iām also trying to give us both grace as it has been an extremely stressful couple of weeks, on top of everything else in the world. But I am journaling a lot to vent and see if things get better or worse.
Iāll see if I can find some garden pics. When we moved in a year ago it was a disaster just overrun with weeds.
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Day 1640 : No binge today.
@Passerina_cyanea Iām terribly sorry about your issues with your partner, as well. Unfortunately I donāt have any advice, but I am sending supportive hugs your way.
And I would love to see your garden after youāve tidied it up to your liking.
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At some point in my marriage I had the feeling we were having the same conversations over and over with the same undesired outcomes. I had run out of ideas how to change that. Coupleās counselling helped. Can very much recommend.
567 sugar
431 UPF
305 gluten/dairy
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Day 1641 : No binge today.
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568 sugar
432 UPF
306 gluten/dairy
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I did not binge eat last night, and managed to eat before midnight. Giving myself a cut off time for food 12am, itās a start, of course Iām gonna keep scaling back. If I can drop another 20lbs that would be amazing, I know my knees would appreciate it.
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Day 1642 : No binge today.
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569 sugar
433 UPF
307 gluten/dairy
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Day 1643 : No binge today.
@StacyAnn I hope that your new eating schedule helps you. Wishing you luck on your weight loss too, and if you need extra weight loss support you can also post on the weight loss thread. I will see if I can link it here.
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