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Oh god, so many calls and appointments before I get to even speak to someone about ED..
Another assessment booked now for Wednesday and then theyâll hopefully finally assign me some treatment with a specialist 
I am glad that I keep pushing through until I get to speak to someone about this all. Itâs still scary but with every new binge I am only more and more aware that I need this.
Happy Monday everyone! 
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That didnât last long! Turns out that all of those other resources did not include having a community for support and being vulnerable and understanding what Iâm going through. So Iâm back here and Iâll probably drop some of my other resources so I donât go too crazy. These days I feel like my head is on upside down.
I also started sneak eating at home which is NOT a habit I want to develop again especially when I have to hide things from my partner. Just because no one saw me eat a giant spoon of peanut butter, it still counts! We are trying to start closing the kitchen at 8. I havenât been good about it so far. I tend to want to break the rules, even self imposed ones. I want to learn to do this from a place of love.
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Day 1757 : No binge today. 
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day 1. no binging with food 
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Havent checked in here in awhile. Things have been actually going pretty good in this area as of late. I have been attending my ED support groups Monday and Friday. And since i received that âhigh cholesterolâ result on my blood work, i have made some better eating choices. In fact⌠changing what i eat has surprisingly reduced my binge eating.
Right now i am focusing on no processed meats, no fried foods, no full fat dairy (so low fat is okay), no baked goods, no processed snacks, reduce salt intake, reduce added sugar, limit beef and pork, and keep to complex carbs (when i do eat them).
Bcuz im not eating cookies or pastries or icecream etc, im not binging bcuz I am not triggered. I havent come across a time yet where my emotions are high and i feel the need to cope with food, so im trying to prepare for that. But so far so good! Im hoping this lifestyle change helps me lose some weight also 
Not giving up!
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Day 1758 : No binge today.
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Well done! Looks like youâre doing great 
I found it much easier not to binge when I cut out certain food (e.g. sugar, bakery..). The issue is that I slipped back to eating it and now I am at a rabbit hole from which I am struggling to get out 
But I want to be back to this. I still have a small reminder of that nice time without binging here in my office:
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I binged and binged and binged without even a day off. Some evenings more, some lessâŚeither way feels awful the following morning. All the bloating and disgust.
Iâve got an assessment call at 2pm of the UK time and hopefully it will lead to an online therapy 
That would make me accountable at least, but also give me tools which would make me stop binging. Iâm so fed up 
I really want to get back on track. Itâs unbelievable for how long I am having this issue!!! Itâs countless amount of days when I get up and wish for not to binge, but then I binge regardless later in the day. It reminds me so much of the time when I used to have a drinking problem. It was the exactly same thing when I wished for not to drink, but ended up drunk. Never ending cycle. Except for that I eventually managed to stop drinking and broke the pattern (it took me âonlyâ 3 years since I started trying.)
I already had a therapy for ED (for bulimia) which has been successful. The therapy was closed in April 2022. So itâs been 3 years since and it means that I struggle with binging for approximately over 3 years now. Just about time to get rid of it, right?
I need to stop eating 
. Why is it so bloody hard? I know itâs not doing me any good, I know itâs hurting me mentally and physically, yet I still consume it 
Anyway, I needed a small moan. Hope the 2pm thingy will be good and that it will send me the right direction
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@Butterflymoonwoman So great to read youâve been free of triggers 
and already experiencing relief.
@Jana1988 With your appointment comming up I can see your ED playing up.
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Very much. Heâs a b*tch 
The assessment was good. Now I must wait for them to get back to me with a potential therapy. They think I should have something called CBT (sounds like a drug 
) â stands for Cognitive Behaviour Therapy.
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day 0. I entered in a shop and I bought chocolate. I ate the whole tablet 
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Day 1759 : No binge today.
@Jana1988 Thatâs the same type of therapy I did, I will warn you that it is hard work, especially if they have you doing thoughts on trial. But you can do it, good luck on your journey! 
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I know, @Aleyadaisey Paradoxically, I already did the therapy once already too when I suffered from bulimia. I went 100% and just did everything I had to. It was extremely hard, I agree, I had to surrender - let go - and trust the process. I was so desperate that I did that, because I thought that even if it wouldnât work, I can always go back to the binging/ purging cycle. It did work, but I developed this binging thing, and I think Iâm still purging but via exercise this time. So maybe a reminder will help me again. At least I hope 
I am glad that it worked well for you
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In the meantime while you wait for this to begin.
Hopefully your foods youâre most likely to binge on are or can be out of your house and/or reach with your partners help.
I know that a lot of the foods he wants and so they are available in your house
Surely if he knows how important all this is to you and how much it upsets you, he could help you at home
You also have pinpointed after dinner as being your worst time usually.
Yes , we are all responsible for our own actions. But itâs always nice to have help from those around us.
Itâs just like another drug. It really is and for anybody to make light of that then they donât know what theyâre talking about ⌠which is fineâŚ. They donât know what theyâre talking about.
When you are at work and they bring all the donuts youâre on your own.
I know for me itâs not all sweets.
Itâs even different good healthy foods that Iâm not used to having in my refrigerator.. for instance if I made a yummy healthy bean salad or something for guests , and there are lots left overs, I would try to eat the rest of it.. why???
is it something in the beans thatâs triggering it, itâs high carbohydrate.
Iâm not used to high carbohydrate⌠or is it just the novelty of something that is different than what Iâm normally used to eating and so I want more and then more and then more and then more??
Itâs a combination of all of it for me
To the people that say oh just have some self-control.
They donât know what theyâre talking about and again itâs just like youâre talking to somebody about drugs.
And just like you say you canât just quit eating.
You can just quit drinking, you can just quit shooting drugs up your arm.
You can say no never again.
But you canât with food because you have to have food.
So at home where youâre able to get some help from your partner, please ask him and tell him how important it is to you and how he can help you.
Hiding the stuff that youâre most likely to want to get into.
Itâs a simple thing for him to do that can make a big difference in what you do.
And help you get out of the cycle that youâre in now of wanting to repeatedly binge.
Itâs a monster and it has you in its grip right now.
Yes, talking about it and looking for the therapy and all that that could be making it worse
Big hugs. Lots of understanding and love.
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Day 1760 : No binge today.
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day 1. Yesterday I ate a lot of meat. 
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