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This is an important step, and a brave thing to do. One of the ways alcoholism works in families is that we don’t admit it, we don’t talk about it out loud. Acknowledging your recovery aloud smashes that paradigm of shame, hiding, and perpetuation of the drinking. Good for you! 
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Wow! It’s crazy when we realize how our loved ones saw this in us and we thought we had shit under control. Just another reason to stay on track.
Glad that you are enjoying your time with family and you are maintaining your sobriety 
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Since I remember in my family being an alcoholic was seen as being less, there are alcoholics in our family… well most of them already died due to alcohol abuse. I grew up thinking it is a shame to be an addict… and here I am now telling them ‘me too’, being open about it, telling them how bad it was and how much I want to be sober. And I see the change in them…
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Yes Jasmine, nobody is stupid, they see us… i used to think my drinking doesn’t affect my daughter, that she doesn’t see it, that I am hiding it too well… talking to her recently I realised she knew and she was worrying about me, she just didn’t know how to talk about it to me, she was depressed and I found her a psychotherapist who helped her, she was 16 then (4years ago), I honestly never thought that she was talking to her therapist about her mothers addiction… thats how blind I was…
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Grateful that your daughter is seeing this sober side of you. Seeing you healing and has someone to help her through her depressive time.
I honestly didn’t think that anyone saw the seriousness ofy addiction and also that my addiction caused my loved ones any harm.
So grateful that we are putting ourselves back together and in parallel healing our relationships with our loved ones 
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Big one today! 50 sober days 
it makes me so very happy, even more happy since I realised I want it forever now… I don’t want alcohol in my life ever again. It is so helpful to have this place to come to every day, sometimes its only 20 minutes and i only do some reading here but it always reminds me where I was and how big is what I am doing now, how strong I am to get this far.
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Congratulations on 50 days of freedom!
I’m with you on that. It’s a poison I never want in my life again. I’m sad that I ever allowed it in to begin with but we get to change that and live our days without the horrible lies and consequences it brings.
Alcohol not only serves no purpose but it destroys everything it touches.
Well done! 
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I am in my country now, I watched this Polish movie today on Netflix, ‘Zabawa, Zabawa’ (‘Playing Hard’). Really good one…
Yes, I only regret its taken me so long to see it… they say that things are happening for the reason…
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This is a big deal, congratulations!
Thank you Dan xxx
Oh my goodness…I do love this and am so very happy for you!!! 50 days is awesome Blanka . You keep putting in the solid effort…the sober rewards will come to come your way 
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I heard there was a celebration going on over here. 50 ODAATs!., way to go Blanka!!
I’m so happy and proud of you
Keep kicking ass!!
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Back to UK today, so nice to be back 
52+ days ago it would be the reason to have a bottle of wine+, not anymore 
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Not any more…I like that! You keep working that sober journey
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It’s good to be back home after a nice trip back home!
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Yes home away from home xxx
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I thought I will share something private… I guess I need a bit of support and reassurance. Since I came back from my holiday at my family I felt so good about sharing with them my struggle and that I am sober now. They were so lovely and supportive and forgiving. It made me think about how my addiction affected my life and life of people I love. So I decided to write an email to my ex (we broke up around 4 months ago), I thought he deserves to know that I acknowledge a lot of responsibility for the breakage of our relationship, I told him that I am in recovery now and apologised for the time when I was ‘lost and weak’. It was yesterday and he didnt respond… Im not sure how to feel about it… I didn’t expect much but it feels so cold anyway
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