I did thank god! Thought i fixed the truck a/c. i charged it n it worked all morning. Ride home it shyts out… time to get rid of that pos…
We came from middletown to harrington about an hour ride… thank god for not much traffic…sorry for thread jackin’ lol
I have come to realise in the last few days that Im not in the right headspace. I wore up this morning in a cold sweat, I had a dream about drinking and justified it making it alright, I kept the alcohol secret and told no one that I had relapsed…after waking up and feeling horrified that I dream’t such a thing I sat and thought about it long and hard.
I have a business that isn’t going so well at the moment, I am in the constant scrutiny of a small minded country town that seems to think the horrible judgements and words that they put on me is their god given right.
My anxiety is through the roof, so much so that all of my fingers bleed from me tearing the skin from them whilst I’m completely unaware I’m doing it.
I suppose my alcoholic brain is working through the stress and trying to find a way to justify the smallest amount of booze so that I can find just the smallest amount of ‘numb’ from the current situation. Not ideal at all!
I try my best to be bullet proof but Im not.
Anyway…long story short after waking from a crappy dream, rubbish sleep and really digging deep and being honest with myself and with the help of everyones comments on this forum ( Thank you from the bottom of my heart, it means a lot 
), I have realised that I am dangerously close to the line and dancing with the devil again.
I will take myself to a meeting today and steer myself away from what could be a devastating realisty.
Thank you Tracy and all that have commented. You have all helped open my eyes xx
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You are so welcome! We’ve all had reality checks by good friends at one time or another. Love your insight & your plan. You haven’t had a drink & you know exactly what to do. So hop to it! And this rough time will pass. Hit a meeting, pray & know that we’re all here for you 