I’ve was on that treadmill for so long that I can skip leg day indefinitely. I knew I had a problem with alcohol and I’d wake up sick from a hangover saying “never again” only to drink later that day. For years, I was wanting to quit. Slowly I noticed that all the reasons I drank, )the fun enhancer, the stress reducer, the sleeping aide), well, it quit working. It was no longer fun, the stress compounded and sleep, while physically unconscious, wasn’t quality by any means.
I was an alcoholic, but I kept doing it, day after day, year after year. It wasn’t fun anymore, and hadn’t been in a long time.
I flirted with longer stints of sobriety but it wasn’t until I changed my relationship with alcohol that I was able to see results.
This is what worked for me, maybe there’s some value in that for you. 