Of course that guy is still there and he is fricking awesome. We all build up these walls of personality and behaviour as reactions to our world and experiences…but deep down we are all beautiful intelligent, souls. Namaste my friend 
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DAY 7 
Hey friends of TS , today is little big goal for me : 7 days without alcohol.
I know is not a long time , but I think that everyone that is an alcoholic can understand me if I tell you that for me it is a big one .
Every single 24 hours are big for us .
Sometimes it is a struggle , but here I find people like me that can help me to fight this struggle . Can’t fight alone against alcohol, this is sure .
You really are helping me a lot . I would like to thank you one by one for this big help I find here , that is PRICELESS!
Love you my friends , you are my real friends .
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Totally get it i am on day 18 and know small nos. But these numbers have never been achieved by me so feeling proud. Congrats keep strong…
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Sometimes I hate my job: like now!
Got a call: more co workers sick. So I have nobody who can work tonight beside me…but I have a concert to go to!
I think I’m gonna close the shop early, decided I’m not going to cancel my concert. Have to call the area manager and tell her. Curious how she will react 
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My sobriety is being tested as we speak. F**k.
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- Stay with us and stay sober @MissJules. Good you are here and good your are talking about it. What’s happening? Myself just waking up with coffee and more coffee, one late shift to go till my weekend which coincides with the real weekend, thinking about going to the gym before work. Feeling OK. Not special, just OK. Which is fine. Living life. Not feeling the need to booz or drug myself. Have a good day all. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
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Checking in 1 month 
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Thanks alot !! Today i celebrated with my first 0,0% beer and a nice lunch. That was lovely
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Not sure yet, it was such a small group from what I could see through the window. I’m terribly insecure, so we’ll see. If my friend comes with me one week, or as you said, if someone is kind enough to wait outside for me, then I might try
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Checking in at 136.47 days sober and 4.41 days ED free.
@GVLNative we had some rough weather over on my side of the state as well. Some tornados and whatnot. So lots of school delays, power outages, flooding, trees in the road, yuck. I was out and about in it all day yesterday but a lot of panic in my office over it. I tried my best to not judge or be annoyed by the drama. It wasn’t easy. My receptionist was freaking out, crying, hiding, and overall causing a scene… 
I’m struggling a bit with wanting to stay sober right now. I vividly remember how my body feels when I come off the booze, and never want to feel that way again, but my stupid brain isn’t even telling me I can drink in moderation. It’s flat out forgetting that fact.
My ED is pretty good right now. Thank goodness my slip right at 30 days, almost to the minute, was short lived. Normally it would have gone on for a very long time. Now I feel stronger and almost like it didn’t happen. That’s when counting days can sometimes feel counter productive. It’s like the counter takes away everything you worked for, like the only thing that matters is that ONE day you slipped and all the other days mean nothing.
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Checking in at 132 days without self-harm and 3 days without bingeing or purging. Also its been 5,1 years since touching any drug; not my biggest issue atm, but when the ED hits, I normally have strong urges to go back to amphetamines or other drugs I used to let ruin my life.
Focusing on fighting bulimia, though 
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Thank you!! 
Day 306. Probably my first night check in. I lost my temper at work. This old lady, who is my senior by about four months, constantly tells me I am doing things wrong. Sometimes she will immediately apologize because I am doing stuff right, and she is wrong. Other times I make a mistake, but I will always correct it and take responsibility for it. I think she just needs someone to boss around, because she doesn’t talk to other people the way she talks to me.
It’s been a while since I got really mad, but I think she needs to back off. She will leave on Monday for a new job so it doesn’t matter. I don’t have any patience for bullshit anymore, and that will probably result in problems at work. At least it is Friday and I’m not drinking! Thanks for reading all! 
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Day 18
Knocking ‘em down one day at a time!!
@Jen2020 @Shannon1980 @Hopeful777
Good morning sober twins!!! Hopefully all of you are doing well on Friday Day 18. We are 3 days away from 3 full weeks!!! Whoooooohoooooo!!! Make sure you have your toolboxes 
ready for the weekend. And if all else fails then remember Lions, Tigers, and Bears. Stay strong y’all !!!
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I had my Smart meeting last night and the topic of forever came up. I struggle with the idea of not drinking again forever. It is like Vertigo when I think about it. Of course, the idea with Smart is to retrain your brain. The key is to catch that thought before it starts running away and re-programming. For me, the tool is playing the tape all the way out. The time it takes to do this allows the feeling to pass. This is part of the DISARM toolset. (Picturing myself with that first drink, then bar hopping, then knuckle dragging into a liquor store, and finally waking up with my clothes on with a raging hangover + running through some bad shit I’ve done over the years).
Does anyone else struggle with forever?
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Thanks .
There were some long-term folks in there and the consensus was that folks get past the forever feeling at different times.
One person said they still struggle with it and still work day-to-day, another said about 6mos, another said 2 years. I guess the key is keep on keeping on with day to day until it clicks over. I guess that is part of the brain healing itself.
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Checking in this morning (8am here) and I cant get my head out of my dreams last night. I knew the drinking dreams were coming but I had no idea they would be this soon… The guilt I felt after drinking half that little bottle of heartburn wondering if I threw it back up if it would have still happened… Then I woke up… INTO ANOTHER DREAM! Where I could then literally taste the booze from my previous dream. What kind of sick little game is my mind trying to play on me? Then I felt guilty in that dream but accepted it was too late and slammed more?! Ugh. When I finally got to actually waking up I had to check my entire room to make sure that it didn’t happen… (that and the fact that in reality my mouth did not taste like cinnamon) Maybe it’s because I fell asleep with insane heartburn, who knows?! All I know for a fact is I’m glad to still be sober…
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