Feeling feelings isn’t always nice Geoff. Still feeling and experiencing them beats numbing them with drugs and alcohol hands down. Feel better asap mate.
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Beautiful dog! I like his big ears and dark eyes and nose!
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Thanks Menno!
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Hey all. Day 28 sober and daily exercise. Doing well. Continuing online meetings. About to start a 10 week challenge at the gym.
I’ve been MIA because I’ve been spending every spare minute hunting for a retro caravan to plonk on my friends acreage for cheap holidays with my little boy. I now know that 5 days off TS equals 1000’s of posts to catch up on 
Congratulations everyone on overcoming your daily hurdles with style and flair.
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Haha, like this Ariel. I used to welcome them with a couple of can of Stella. And then ignore them.
Now they’re pissed that they get coffee and conversation instead🤣
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Just do whatcha gotta do buddy. That barn will still be there tomorrow without its working toilet. Just shit in the bucket
Haha, the stories I could tell. But there are ladies present!
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About anything to get your heart rate up. Floor exercises. Just keep them going for a good 20 minutes.
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They’ve probably seen, heard and done worse mate but I get the sentiment 
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Day 20 and was admittedly feeling a tad smug this morning as I listened to my boyfriend barf his guts out after about 10 too many drinks last night 
. That smugness quickly switched to gratitude as I reminded myself that was me just 21 short days ago. I’m grateful I’ve chosen sobriety for 20 days, and for you all for being here! Coffee cheers to sober, hangover free holiday Monday 
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@SoberWalker I love morning workouts. I switched about 8 years ago. Up at 5-5:30 am to hit my morning workout at 6:45am. I have great energy for most of the day. I hit a wall around 2pm! Give it a good 3 weeks or so and you will be hooked!
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I hope so. Have not the space to work out at home. So the earliest I can start at the gym is 7 o’clock. But have to be at work at 8:30 so it’s a challenge! 
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You got this lady!!!
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Checking in on day 75 and feeling real emotional this morning. I woke up from an extremely vivid dream of my ex last night, every moment and image of this dream was so surreal and I didn’t want to wake up. I actually began to tear up as I woke, realizing not only it were a dream, but also how much I’m still very much in love with this girl and truthfully don’t think it will ever go away. October will be 3 years since the last time I have seen her, and during these 3 years I have not looked her up at all online (don’t have Facebook) or any means at all of trying to find out about her. She could be living in a different country for all I know, it just hurts too much to know who she may be with. I still think about her constantly, and its never any thing I do on purpose, it’s always triggered by a dream or a memory, and I can’t control my dreams. I did a great job of controlling what I can control and that’s moving on and not looking her up or asking about her or trying to contact, but it’s these thoughts of us that come into my head that hurt so bad, and I just wish she knew how much I still love her and care about her. It would make me happy if she at least knew that. She was my drug, and it’s so relatable to my actual DOC its not even funny, except a relapse in this case would be a dream come true. Losing her, indirectly due to my habit was single handedly the biggest loss of any thing of mine, and this is something I will likely never get back. They say you can get back everything you lost and more, well I would take her back in my life and trade that for any thing else I lost times a thousand. I really wish I could talk to someone about this more frequently, but my friends tell me it’s been years and they can’t believe I haven’t moved on. I honestly haven’t even dated anyone since her, because any girl would remind me of how much I miss her, I tried 2 dates in these 3 years and both times I kept thinking about her, what she would of wore, what she would of said, how she would of reacted to things, and that was simply not fair to my dates so I needed to be honest and tell them I wasn’t ready for anything.
Sorry for rant, needed to get this out though
Dave
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Day 450
Great day yesterday at the season ticket member event. So thrilled with the end result of my project! Last week I cut the board, found and applied a logo decal, had the matte custom cut, and got the frame. Yesterday was autograph time. Got all the players on the team, except for 2 – one was absent, and one is loaned out to another club at present. Would also love to have our coach sign it too, he’ll be tricky to get ahold of.
It was awesome to meet the fellas and to be able to thank them in person for playing so hard for us, to express my appreciation for them.
If I were still a drinker, I have no doubt I likely wouldn’t have made it to the event due to hangover etc. I probably would’ve been ejected from a few games by now for being too drunk and unruly. The money spent on putting this piece together would’ve been spent on booze instead.
Thank you sobriety.
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Don’t ever be sorry for feeling how you feel and sharing it. That’s exactly why every one of us is here. I’m sorry your heart is hurting and I thank you for sharing.
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Day 402. Felt great yesterday afternoon, clearer than usual lately. Maybe the early hike after a week of socializing and eating too much at the conference. Gonna head out and try that again with our holiday today.
“How can you kill time without injuring eternity?” 
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Man, I felt every word of this. I too lost someone very special to me because of my habit. 4 years with a wonderful woman and 8 months before our wedding date she discovered I was not being faithful to her. But I was so lost in my addiction, I found a way to twist my screwed up decisions around to blame her. It wasn’t until May of this year that I admitted that it was 100% my fault. It has been really really hard to know I may never meet someone as wonderful, loving and caring as she was to me. I had never experienced love like hers and I threw it away. Your honesty after your dates is a great sign that your recovery is your focus. Don’t give up on recovery or on your heart being healed. It sounds like you are doing the right things. We are all here for you and you can rant anytime you need. Congratulations on 75 days!
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Sorry to hear that man. It sounds crazy to say this but I almost wish I did cheat on her, because at least then I would know deep down I had messed up and deserved to no longer be with her. She thinks I cheated on her, and that’s another reason why it hurts so so much and is so hard to just move on from her. We separated for another reason(s) which had little to nothing to do with loyalty. We were both honest and trusting, I just made a very difficult and dumb decision during our last year together that was never able to repair itself after it was made.
Day 37. Happy Labor Day.
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