Checking in day 161.
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40 days without inner circle behaviors. 197 days without pot.
Feeling a little low because I would have been approaching a year on the 14th. But I’ve got some things to look forward to in my life next week.
Taking a step back, there’s been a ton of progress. I’ve acted out once in nearly a year. Though some days I feel like I haven’t traveled very far. I know I need to continue to do more to keep my recovery in focus. I need to wake up and affirm those first three steps each morning. I need to continue to work with my potential sponsor and avoid being discouraged by the small stuff.
I don’t know where I’d be without each and every one of you. So grateful to be here.
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Yes me to I now how you feel right now 
Day 312.21
Taking it one hour at a time today.
It’s not that I think I might drink in the middle of the day, that’s not what I’m up against necessarily.
It’s the mindset issues that I’m fighting with.
A rotten self image and my own pessimism, nihilism and masochism led me to do a lot of my drinking. I drank to beat myself up. I drank because I couldn’t set fire to the things I really wanted to destroy, so I set fire to myself.
I see now that I had an alcoholic mindset decades before I was an actual alcoholic; from my childhood, really. So, today, that’s my fight. I’m fighting against my mind. I’m fighting against my own outdated synaptic network. I’m fighting a cancer I created. I’m fighting one hour at a time.
Maybe one day I’ll be able to exchange the word “fighting” with words like “accepting”, “surrendering” cnc “letting go of”… But not today; today’s a fucking fight. And I honestly don’t know if I’ll win.
I DO KNOW that, if I go it alone, I will fail.
Soooo I’m gonna lean into my HP and into you, my sober family.
I love you guys.
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This is such a perfect descriptor. I can see myself using this term exclusively to describe my disease.
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You’re a fuckin champion, Mitch.
I don’t know how you guys do it.
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Those words are so meaningful coming from an inspirational guy like you Cade. Thanks for that, I needed it today.
I’ve been a bit of a spectator lately but I have been paying attention to your legal battle. The way you’ve reengage and taken it head on with an attitude of gratitude is truly awesome. I know words can’t help you much for what you’re facing but I’m cheering you on. If I can be a source of support in any way, please reach out.
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You already ARE supporting me.
That’s HOW I’m able to do any of this.
I can never do or say enough to pay you guys back. 
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I’ll give it a listen.
I’m still stuck on this song. It’s 50/50 whether it brings tears… Maybe 60/40
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Today i ve lived half a century.
And my sober numbers are 333.
I wish you all sobriety seeking & sober fellows a relaxing amazing weekend
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Happy Bio-Birthday Hanna.
I hope I look that good at 50. 
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Wow on many levels.
@MrCade - I am glad you are out on bail. I know this fight is a struggle right now, but one hour (or even minute) at a time is the way we do it. One foot in front of the other, my friend.
@Fireweed - I hope you always remain a few days ahead of me on this crazy journey of ours. And happiest of birthdays to you.
@BillS - you, my friend, are such a rockstar.
Day 329. I feel at peace today, which I am grateful for after an emotionally erratic week. Today, a mental health organisation teamed up with those in addiction and they had a trailer converted into a mock teenager’s bedroom to teach about signs of drug abuse. I feel pretty savvy about these things; however, I was never an IV drug user and this was the focus, so I learned a lot more than I expected.
Today is a great day to be clean and sober. 
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Hello, first time back on this app in awhile. Today is day 4. I will not drink today.
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Megan!!! I have thought of you tons over the last many months. I’m so glad to see you back here. 
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Checking In: 22. Keto: 1. After speaking with a Dietician I’m going to give the keto diet a try for about a month. If I find ‘keto flu’/carb withdrawal too much, I’ll pass for a few more weeks and try again. My sleep came back 
Haven’t worked out at all this week and have been focusing on resting as much as possible these last few days, while the kids are at school. Work tonight for the next three nights. Hope everyone is doing well! TGIF 
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Best of luck with keto. Staying well hydrated and extra salt should help with flu 
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Happy birthday Hanna 
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Dear sober and everything friend. I will definitely stay ahead you, at least today 
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Yes!!!
Also, if you’re full into ketosis, and decide it’s not for you, remember to gradually add back in your carbs vs too much at once. Very small chance (but possible) that it can be harmful. Glad you’re sleeping better! Happy Friday 
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