Day 918
I am pretty flushed with gratitude this morning. Lots of emotions boiling up, but now it’s just gratitude.
I was watching the news on the 9/11 anniversary and I just started bawling. Like tears streaming down my face bawling. All those people and all those families man, just got me.
I prayed a whole bunch on it. I prayed for all those families. I prayed for my countrymen. And now I’m just so grateful for what I have and what I get to give. I am grateful that I am sober. I am grateful for my family. And I am grateful for all of you 
Keep on truckin Folks
Thanks and congrats on a year Bill! I’m a little late but that is amazing! Well done! Did you do anything to celebrate?
- I dont like taking breaks.
I sure did… celebrated with a MASSIVE hot fudge sundae. 
I just hobbled around getting my paints set up to work on this Buddha, only to find out that the tube of white I need is missing.
Not feeling very effin Zen right now. 
The palette is a pretty accurate representation of how I feel lately. I’ll just hang that on the wall. 
Day 3 . Unchartered territory for me. I never thought I’d be here given the last 10 years and the habits that were just knee jerk every time. No sadness atm, cravings are dealt with with a firm smack between the eyes by my new mentality. Tomorrow will be day 4, working solidly over this next 3 days so I cant see the week being a problem. That said, I am still on my guard, still going to the gym, still being sociable and still checking in
Day 8 just checking in. Woke up with vertigo this morning from allergy season being in full swing here so going to get a shot to knock it out!! No worries about drinking today for sure, not feeling like this lol
Same here!
Day 618
Awesome how reading this thread helps me to ground and calm myself.
Work was okay, but A LOT of gossip again at work. This really sucks. 2 years ago I would have had some beers to “calm down”. Now I’ll get some nice champignons, heavy cream, spaghetti and start creating a delicious mess in my kitchen 
317: Trying to make the best of a road trip with my
wife. Every day, her attitude and her words
remind me of why we need to divorce. I’m
hanging on by my finger tips. If I were still
drinking, we’d be fighting all day everyday.
I’m so glad that’s not the case.
599 days of being on the greener grass.
Sobriety is just a way of life.
Day 3. Just finished a meeting. Feels good to be back. So grateful! I’m ready…I’ve surrendered. One day at a time!
Checking in!!! Not much going on lately. Bands are both on a break. Stoked to be seeing The Midnight tomorrow night, though.
Have a strong day!!!
- My cover page (not sure what to call it) reads “almost there”…almost where? And I write this in a positive tone as I am grateful for this: I am no where near almost there!!! I am just happy to be right here, right now.
I hear and read everyone’s posts, nodding to myself as I read, about the alcohol brain. It’s been real strong lately! Confusing but not dominating my sobriety in anyway. From jokes that are not at all funny (like to my daughter while our running errands: just a bit quick stop to the wine store. Wtf) to weird “one day” thoughts. There is no one day. There is today and I am sober.
I also had a friend over the other night, who, after drinking a whole bottle of wine to herself asked me how I am enjoying my sobriety. I felt confident in my responses but just felt that these were wasted sentences and that they sound better in my head or with othe non drinkers. Idk. She must be very curious for her own personal reasons because she asks me every time. Well, I can hope that maybe she tries it sometime and looks to me for support!
Day 2
I’m back again. Relapsed many times until I was drinking every day a bottle of wine or more. Last two months I was physically and mentally so tired. And mainly tired of myself. I now made a pact with my bf (not a problem drinker), that we both don’t drink for a month. Then I’ll see what happens. The idea of being abstinent forever holds me back to start with day 1. So, I finally started again and feel so much better already.
Hope you are all alright and a great evening everyone!
Welcome back. Your story resembles mine. I’m back on Day 3. One day at a time. We can do this!
@anon30771928 thank you my friend for your good advice. I need to find a good coping strategy. Specially during work. I start to be full of anger and anxiety and although I pray my quick temper betrays me and I know is because I don’t deal well with stress and lack of sleep 
thank you
Don’t think of forever.
Just think about today.
That’s the only day we are sure of.